It's been one week since we broke up. I feel okay. There are times when it gets to me but I think in general I did the right thing. or it could just be I've been really good at distracting myself.

I went to my friends house as soon as we broke up. She said one thing that helped her was signing up to a dating site and just chatting to people. So she sat there asking my questions while she signed me up. I've spent a lot of time on it, most messages are crap "hey beautiful/cutie/sweetie/sexy" things not even worth a response but there have been a couple people I've chatted to and in a weird way I guess it's getting my self esteem back up there. I knew I still had it!

On Firday I had a pity party lol I hung out with a couple of my girl friends and it was nice. They learned the whole story and I was sure to verbalize all the things that wasn't right about the relationship which helped to make me see what I did was for the best. We were at C's parents house, she was cat sitting for the weekend so we made burgers and then sat in the sauna her Dad had just built. It was so nice! After we sat outside and had a fire and some drinks.

Saturday was my first day off since my exso left. I woke up and didn't know what to do with myself. So I jumped on the exercise bike, I'm really trying to get back in the habit. i need to start doing things to make me feel good, I've been so focused on someone else for so long. Then I signed up for a photography course starting in September. I was thinking about it for a while and finally just went for it. I am looking forward to it and maybe I'll meet some new people as well.

I went to go see my Grandparents for the afternoon which was nice cause I haven't seen them in a while. Homeless Jesus is still there, but my Grandparents said they are dealing with it so I didn't say anything. Apparently though on HJ's last visit with his kid they were doing something and all of the sudden the little girl goes "I'm scared of black people...but my Mommy is black" Which is kind of disturbing, I know her mom is mental but is she doing things to scare her? Or does her mom have friends that make the little girl uncomfortable?

I was helping my Grandpa water went all of the sudden my phone goes off. It is a text from one of the guys I was talking to on the dating site. We had exchanged a few messages prior and tentatively made plans to meet Sunday after work for a beer. He messaged me saying he had got the evening off of work and wanted to know if I wanted to get together a day early. I agreed and ran home to get ready.

We met downtown at an outside patio. He was super cute! It was a little weird at first, I don't remember the last time I was on a date or first date at that. We talked and had some a couple drinks. I had something small to eat cause I hadn't all day. He suggested the fish tacos which ended up being probably the messiest thing I could have picked. Oh well, gotta get all the charming stuff out of the way early then they can't be surprised at how unsophisticated I am later right? We decided to hear somewhere else after and as I was reaching to look at the bill I knocked my water glass and spilt it all over his shorts!! OOps haha I guess I must have been charming as he didn't end the night there. We talked to another bar and along the way the collage downtown was hosting an anime convention and everyone was dressed up. He suggested we walk though and have a look at the costumes. It was odd, all those kids growing up with no social skills concentrated in once area.

The pub wasn't very busy so we sat at the bar. We talked for about three hours. I found it a bit hard for my to talk about myself cause everything exciting that I've done involved my exso so I had to be careful not to use 'we'. When it was time to go we got our tab $75!! Yikes! We started walking back to the main street, he had his arm around me as we walked. I had been asking him about his place earlier and when we got to the main street I said something about 'oh good there is taxis' I didn't want to take the train home alone at 1 in the morning. He replied something like 'oh your taking a taxi, do you want to see my house?' Haha me being the sex deprived person I am agreed.

So we got back to his sat on the sofa awkwardly for a bit talking and then BAM we're kissing After a while we go into his room. Started making out, he had such a hairy chest! oh man I'd never seen one that hairy, but it was super soft so I went with it. We didn't have sex which was kind of nice. At about 3 am he said he had to try and get some sleep before work...but it didn't happen we just kept kissing all night and when he tried to sleep he spooned me. it was weird it was almost as if he liked me.

The next morning he made me coffee and offered to pay for a taxi home but the train was only a couple blocks away so I decline. We walked to the end of the block together before we went different ways. He asked if he could see me before he went home for a couple weeks so we planned for tomorrow. I said that worked. (but actually i had a date planned for that day so I had to rearrange that one!)

So yep. In case you haven't figured out the title reference yet. It's cause I'm on the rebound haha. I didn't think about exso once that ngiht so I guess that probably means something.