I wish I could hook my brain up to something that would get my thoughts out, typing is too difficult sometimes or my thoughts move to fast for my fingers.

I spent the last week in Quebec with Kteire, it was awesome..but I'll have to save that for another day..when I have pics!

I had a job interview this morning. It was at a boutique hotel downtown. Seems like a great job, benefits after 6 months. I think it went fairly well....but I don't know that I want it. I think I am scared of having a real job. They want me to be able to commit at least a year and I can't expect to get time off at christmas/new years or much off ever.

I feel stupid for thinking like this I'm 26 and don't really have anything to show for myself. I'm thinking about maybe going back to school, but mostly only because I feel the pressure or getting older and that I should. There is a course I could take to be a hospital unit clerk, it's 16 weeks and that seems attainable to me. I hate that I don't know what I want to do.

I feel like I need to take some time and do things for me. I feel like I am pretty over the break up but it still makes me a little sad. I was focused on him for so long I lost a lot of what I enjoyed doing. (He sent me an email a couple days ago saying he was sorry he didn't do what he should have when he had the chance. It was heartbreaking.)

I have been asked by someone at work to babysit for him 2 days a week for the next two months. It would be $900/month cash. I live at home so I could do that for two months and then work at the ski hill in the winter and then get to go snowboarding this winter since I haven't for the last two years.

I am taking a photo course once a week and I just got an email saying that a german course opened a couple hours in the afternoon.

Can I work twice a week with maybe the odd job here and there and take two courses with out looking like I'm not going anywhere with my life? or is it time to suck it up and get a proper job?