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I tried to plan a bbq with the people from the campground last week. Everyone said they were going to come but it only ended up being my friend and her bf and one of the guys from work. I kinda have a crush on the guy at work....more by default. He isn't conventionally attractive but I guess his personality makes up for it. The only other two guys I worked with were 65 or a 20 yr old hipster. So he was the one I'd fantasize about making out in the closet with.
We had some hot dogs and a fire. It was really fun and then before I knew it my friend and her bf had to get going because she started school the next day. I wasn't really in a rush to leave so I kept drinking and talking to the guy from work. We talked for like three hours and then it's all of the sudden its 2am. I am hammered and say I have to walk home. He says I can't do that. He says he'll let me sleep in his tent and he'll sleep on the picnic table. I told him that was stupid. He had two sleeping bags so he gave me the warm one and the air mattress. I was so excited to get my make out on.....but it didn't happen. I woke up the next morning and was so confused with where I was. It was awkward? I made it awkward so when we got out of the tent I grabbed my stuff and left right away and just kinda said see ya later.
I got a text from him the next day saying something like 'I had a good nite! Even though everyone ditched us
" and then something about how we'd have to go out for crab legs. I don't remember anything we talked about but I must have told him I like crab. Anyway we've been texting off and on since....so we'll see where that goes. I won't hold my breath cause everyone else I was talking to stopped talking to me..gahh. ~~~~~~~
I went hiking this past weekend with a couple girls I recently met. We went to Lake Louise through boulder pass. It was so pretty all the leaves are changing. I of course am not on the right computer to post pics! The first day was a bit rainy and cold. The campground we stayed at we were the only ones there except these two older ladies.
The girl that planned the trip has spent about 10 000$ on camping gear so it is always so easy to go with her because she has spare backpacks and sleeping bags. She has a dehydrator so she makes the best foods. We had pulled pork and beer for dinner. We made a small fire but hadn't had much time to forage for wood.
The next day we did a short hike up a pass to Merlin lake where we skinny dipped in the rain. It was pretty cold and quite liberating
We found tons of wood that night so we had a huge fire. Once it was out I took some photos of the stars, I got some awesome milky way photos! It was absolutely freezing because it was so clear. I think it froze overnight. I was buried deep into my sleeping bag with all my clothes on thinking I was going to die the air was so frigid. The next day was really nice but the wind was cold. We packed up, ate breakfast and then headed down the mountain. We saw some marmots but no bears unfortunately.
We did about 40 kms total and I was surprisingly less sore then I thought I'd be. I had a really hard time dealing with my break up this weekend. Everything reminded me of hiking with my exso, I hadn't been to Banff since I was with him. I saw things that I wanted to share with him and it just made me really upset. I cried myself to sleep the night I got home.
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Last night I went out for drinks for a friends Birthday. Her bf was there with some friends. It was nice to get out. Then these two guys showed up. One of them was really cute. We all chatted for a while and when it got late we all headed out. I was waiting with cute guy and he said he was hungry and him and the guy he came with were going to get some food. He asked if I was coming, I was like
and he said yes I was. We said goodbye to my friend and her bf was haggling with those guys that sell flowers. CG got a deal 3/$10 so he gave me one and my friend. He tried to give the third just to some random girl and she got really mad at him and was like "I don't want your fucking flower!" haha so he gave it to me. CG his friend and I went to a pub down the street but they weren't serving food. Another guy showed up and we had a drink. I was talking to him and he was sooo cute! We were talking about lots and I was totally loving it. He said he had to go soon and I looked at the time and it was already 12:30 so I said yea I had to get going as well. He asked if I wanted to take a walk so I said ok and he walked me to my car....and then got in my car! He asked where we were going and I said I was going home. He said that wasn't fun, I told him I could drop him off near his house. He asked where I lived and I told him. He suggested we go there but I had to inform him I did infact live with my parents so that was not happening. I started towards his house. When I got there I asked where I had to go. He said if I was coming up I could park around the building. Being the horn dog I am at the moment it was so damn tempting but I have my danm period and my legs are prickly as fuck so I told him I really had to get home. He said thanks for the ride, gave me a hug and said I was the best. I was a little peeved he didn't ask for my number or anything.
I messaged my friend about how sad I was I still haven't had any hot rebound sex. She then informed me that her bf who works with CG.....HAS A GIRLFRIEND!!!! Wtf?! I was so pissed! What if I had gone up with him?? I found his facebook and it does indeed look like he has a girlfriend, no couple photos but this girl is in a ton of his photos from very recent. My friend said I should message him and ask him wtf or message his gf and let her know he's a smiley guy....but I don't think it's worth it?
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My Mom asked me to go to the grocery store for her today. I couldn't find the things she wanted and I wasn't sure the exact things she needed. I started to get really frustrated and got so overwhelmed that she wasn't going to be happy with what I got that I cried on the way home. She knew I was crying when I came home and asked me what was wrong.
When I lived in England my exso was so particular about everything. I felt like I couldn't do anything right and got to the point where I stopped doing things cause I got so worried it wouldn't meet his standards. My mom reassured me she'd never do that, but I never realized how much that had affected me. Even cooking the other day I started to get flustered about probably not doing it right. I guess it'll take some time to get over it.
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My job at the campground is up for the season so for the past two weeks I've been babysitting for a guy I work with. It's fucking hard work, I don't know if I ever want children. I didn't really want to babysit but I haven't had any luck with jobs yet and it's $230/2 days each week. so its a little bit to hold me over.
I applied for a restaurant yesterday but they said they've had over 100 applications so I won't hold my breath. I've never had such a hard time finding a job before. It sucks.
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That is all for now.
Rebound sex is great, but I think it's nice that things are moving slowly. It's probably better that way.