Yesterday, I came back from seeing my SO after 5 weeks. A week before that, I confessed to him that I've been having a lot of anxiety about our relationship and our future. A few days later her told me that this confession had caused him to have anxiety as well. Things were a little awkward when I got there. We talked about some things, including him saying that he felt disconnected from me after revealing our anxious thoughts. It ended up being a very nice visit- no arguments, lots of discussions, and lots of love. We put summer out there on the table... Like I had written here before that me living with him over the summer may be an option. It was the first time we discussed how it would be and what needed to be done. It was a very good first step. I can't remember the last time that both of us had been so open with things like fears.
So, even though right now I'm still unsure of what I'll do about summer, I feel a lot better about it all.