So my birthday was yesterday and my SO had off Fri, Sat, Sun, and yesterday. We didn't do anything on Friday because he didn't feel like it, except go to Applebee's for dinner, and on Saturday we went to a dart tournament because he wanted to go, and to be honest, I wasn't really feeling it and I was bored the entire time. Usually, I'm all for going with him to tournaments, because I love watching him shoot, but this time I wasn't really in the mood, plus I wanted to do other stuff. I didn't say anything to him about it because Darts is a big part of his life, and since he started the new job, he had to leave the 2 leagues he was on and sacrifice going to a lot of tournaments. Also, it was a charity tournament, so that was okay. Good thing about it was he won a couple things in the raffle. Lol. A nifty Heineken cooler (seriously, it's pretty cool looking. No pun intended :P ) and this $50 or $75 (we can't remember how much it is, I say it's $50, he says it's $75) gift certificate to this particular guy's (Steven Starr) restaurants. He owns a lot of fancy restaurants. My SO kept saying that it was really good luck that he won that gift card since it would "come in handy" for one of the things he wanted to do for my birthday.

Sunday, we finally did stuff for my birthday. We went to the Adventure Aquarium in Camden, and I really liked it. It was a surprise. I got to touch some sting rays, saw the hippos, saw penguins (my favorite!), and took pictures. Apparently, we were supposed to go to the Philadelphia Zoo too, but we didn't wake up early enough because he wanted to go out Saturday night after the tournament (again, I kinda wasn't in the mood) and we ended up waking up at like 1PM instead of 11AM, when we were supposed to. On Friday he asked me if I had brought a nice dress with me because of where he was planning on taking me to dinner (I didn't, because well, we never go anywhere that nice. I had a feeling of what he was kind of planning on doing, but I forgot to bring a dress/didn't really think we were going to do it). I wish he had told me to bring one so I knew, especially since he knew what he was going to be doing for a couple weeks. -_- He kept saying that we would have to go somewhere to get a dress.

After the aquarium, we went out to dinner, but we went to this dim sum place we love to go to. I kept asking him if he still wanted me to get a dress because he didn't really mention it, and then he said that "it was up to me" if I still wanted to do the dinner thing he had planned, or if we should wait for another day. I still wanted to do the dinner thing, but I knew that it was late already, and the malls were closed (it was already around 6PM when we got our food). He kept thinking that I'd be able to find a dress at Target, so we went to Target after dinner (not for a dress, just for random things he needed), I looked around, but I really didn't find anything and I told him that if he wanted me to find a nice dress, that we'd have to go somewhere else.

After Target, we went back to his house and watched the Lego Movie. He also bought me these two Penguin Plushees that I wanted from the Aquarium, because I love penguins. They were expensive and I felt bad. I kept calculating in my head the entire time how much money he was spending on me, and I really didn't want him to spend that much. I think for the whole day on Sunday, he spent around $150 - $200 on me.

Yesterday...we were supposed to go to the zoo, but we got up late again and then he told me that he didn't feel like going anywhere. -_- Not going to lie, I'm pretty bummed because yesterday was my actual birthday and we did nothing, even though I wanted to. We ordered some food and then he kept complaining he was tired, so he fell asleep, which made me fall asleep, around like 5PM and we didn't wake up until 7:30PM. So, by that time, it was already too late to do anything. Especially since his shift changed, starting today, to 6AM - 2PM.

I'm happy with what he did for me, but at the same time, I'm a little bummed because he kept talking it up about how we were going to do all this stuff for my birthday, and we only did a small part of it because he didn't feel like doing the other stuff. We never had our nice dinner that he kept talking about, and didn't do the zoo thing. I guess, I'm a little annoyed at him for being a little lazy and kind of selfish. Also, if we were going to the restaurant, that I'm pretty sure we were supposed to go to, he would've had to make reservations beforehand, and I'm pretty positive he didn't know that. He'd only been there with his ex once because she took him there (one reason why I'm kinda glad we didn't go. I don't know, I feel a little weird about him taking me to a restaurant that he went to with his ex, that she brought him to/paid for). I feel bad because I know he tried, and I feel guilty for being a little disappointed. I don't want to seem ungrateful or anything like that.

I don't know if we're ever going to have our nice dinner, or go to the zoo. I hate to say it, but my SO has a bad habit of talking things up, and then not following through with them. He wanted to take me to the aquarium/zoo because I've been asking him if we could go since we started dating...over a year and a half ago, and he always said that we would go, but when it came time, he would always be like, "I don't feel like it." He also kept talking it up to our friend and she kept telling me how I was going to love all of the things he had planned for me.

He's asleep now, but I think later I might ask him when we're going to do the dinner thing, or at least tell him to let me know at least a day or two in advance so I can have a dress ready with me. I guess I'm more upset about the dinner thing because I've never been to a nice sit down dinner place before, where I actually had to wear a dress to, and get to have a nice dinner date with my love like all my friends get to do with theirs. Which is horrible, because I hate comparing my relationship to others.

I feel like an @$$hole for being a little disappointed. Ugh. I don't think I wouldn't be disappointed if he didn't tell me we were supposed to do other stuff. Plus, there was definitely plenty of time to do the things that he wanted to do, we had like 4 days to do them all.

He also bought me tickets to see my favorite band, but he told me I'd have to find someone else to go with me, which wouldn't be a big deal, but I don't know anyone who would go with me. I only have like two friends here where he lives, and none of my friends, from where I live, would come with me. They do a Christmas show every year and this year it's on Dec 26, so I don't even think anyone would be available to go with me.