Why am I crying? I don't want to feel like this! *Shakes self*
It's just been a long day. I never did have that nap, and my house still isn't clean, and I didn't go to the shops (didn't want to brave the rain.) But the cookies got done, as did a little gift wrapping, and a little tidying and I moved all the furniture that required moving, so it wasn't a waste. Damn that TV is heavy though. I nearly burst a valve trying to move the damn thing. I also managed to break and (temporarily at least) repair the flush mechanism inside the toilet which I'm relieved about. I know my landlord would get it fixed quicksmart, but I'd rather not be a pain unless it's truly necessary.
Finding out the visa shit was a bit of a kick in the arse though, and I really want to talk to Obi... but when I tried to ring him it was too loud on the train for him to hear me... and I guess it can wait a few hours. I've been terribly homesick and lonely though, and I just wish he'd actually come home on time for a damn change. Nine and a half hours at work is plenty in my opinion. Why the hell can't he start the renders a little earlier and leave on time?
I wonder if this is just the hormones talking? I don't know anymore. I just want loves and someone to whinge to for a little while until I feel better. I'm not strong Miri everyday.
P.S: Thank you again Ryan for listening to my whinge today. You're a good mate.
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But, we can get the money. All up it'll be about $6000 for us to move home, and I can save that alone if I have to - if I have another good summer. And he has his settlement to think about too. Worst comes to worst, he can throw some of that towards a visa. So, we're good. Yes, our home deposit wont be as large as we'd have wanted, but we're not using it for like 5 years anyway so we'll just have to make up for it in the meantime. (And hopefully my house sells by then, and we wont have to worry.)
So it's ok. I'm stable again. Not panicking and not feeling sorry for myself.
And I'm going to be late for work if I don't leave right now!!
Keep your chin up madame, you're stronger then most.