Luckily, my work is picking up. The warm weather is encouraging travelers and sports teams. Some days I genuinely like my job. But always in the back of my mind is the fact that's all it is - a dead end job. It's not what I feel I'm supposed to be doing.
We kinda knew this was coming. We've discussed it. I'd rather take on the burden of supporting us than have him use his/our savings to pay his own way. Because once you start eroding savings, it takes a long time to build them back again. I'd rather do it tough for a while. It's disapointing though. We have a lot of things we need to save for this year and this will slow us right down.
It makes me think too. I did mention a while back there was the chance I'd be able to drop my work down to a couple days a week and focus on my writing. Which of course can't happen now, he didn't get the raise he was promised and now he doesn't get a wage at all. This reminds me that he's chosen a job that will never be stable. There will always be periods between contracts where he's looking for work. (However, in ten years time the huge amounts of money he'll be making will balance that out, or that's the theory.) How can I then, in good concious, also opt for a job that does not have a secure income? Wouldn't that be foolish? What happens when we have three kids, daddy can't find work, mummy hasn't finished her book and the mortgage isn't paying itself and the fridge isn't producing food?
Yes, I'm looking way ahead and I know that. I worry about these things NOW so that in several years if they do happen, I've already got the answer. It's proven to be effective in the past lol.
He says he's relieved though. I know there was a supervisor making his life absolute hell, and now he's free of that, so I'm happy. But, in a completely selfish fashion I can't help but be disapointed for myself. When will it be my turn? While I'm pregnant with baby #2? After the kids start school? When? It's just frusterating.
Anyway, pity party is over.
In other news, we got our pots last night, so tonight will be our first attempt at healthy "waterless, greaseless cooking" woo!
Wedding stuff is also coming along nicely. I had a great skype with my Matron of Honour who's getting so into this! She's a lifesaver honestly. She's also happy to make petticoats for all my ladies (and me too) and is sharing lots of wedding wisdom.
Our tickets home are booked for september. Couldn't be happier.
Sadly, I'm talking to my sister while I write this and I told her about Obi being laid off and she's like "What's the point of being over there if he's not working?", and well, that's very true isn't it? We were due to go home earlier this year and couldnt because we didn't have the money for the travel documents and we had to wait out Obi's court case. Well, his case is done and we have tickets... so I can see why her reaction would be "what are you's waiting for?". Well, the visa, obviously. Duh.
But yeah, frusterating. I know we wouldn't just up and leave now even if we had the visa. I don't think he'd roll with that. But... well, you know.
i hope things won't be too hard for the time left before you guys go back.
if i remember correctly, he works in 3D animation? maybe he could look into freelancing online, like through freelancer.com?
good luck to you both! (i'm a little jealous of your pots heheh enjoy them well !)