I'm just having a short rant here.

The weekend was stressful, today too. Isis doesn't cry much, but she does whinge. Like she'll sit there and make this upset droning sound that goes on and on. It wears me down. I know she's just bored, and that it's my cue to do a bit more with her. But sometimes I run out of things to do - especially if I'm trying to find things to do with her where I can also spend time with Obi. But that's not what this is about. I'm just setting the scene really. On the bright side, we're sleeping better. And we have a car, so we were able to take Isis and drop her at Bec's place for two hours when I was just DONE. Nice.
Bickered with Obi all weekend, and it's left a bad taste in my mouth. Figuratively. All I can actually taste is tea. I'll have to check in with him and see if he's all fine or if there's something underlying that I could be doing better. Later. Tired.

I tried to have a nap today because I'd like to get laid tonight, but 15 minutes in I got a phone call that woke both of us. I've finally got Isis tired enough to try again, but now I'm like, eh... Anyway, tangent again.

Sunday (yesty) we Skyped with the in laws. I know I've mentioned before that I'm not cool with people sharing forward my baby photos/videos, and also that I'd really appreciate it if people wouldn't photoshop her photos either. I mean sure, take out the red eye, but I mean turning her photos into jokes or whatever. I don't know why I have an issue with it. Logically there's not much there. But it makes me really uneasy, it makes me feel like she's being disrespected as a person... but mostly I just don't feel like it's safe. Not that much bad could come from it I'm sure. I've spoke to Bec about it, and she's like "Yeah, I don't understand why you feel like that, I don't see an issue at all..." but she was willing to concede that she might feel different if she were a parent and it's my kid, so my rules.
AAAANNYWAY, fuck, I'm not really getting to the point at all today am I?

In January we had Australia day, and when Isis was asleep I put a little flag in her hand while she was wearing her Aussie flag onesie and I took a picture. You may have seen it on facebook (though I really make an effort not to spam people with my brat. I post less pictures of my small human than most of my mates do of their pets so I think I'm going ok). Well, July the 1st is Canada Day. So my FIL thought it would be an awesome idea to take that picture and photoshop out my flags and put the Canada ones in, and then share that on facebook.

I let it slide. Which isn't at all like me you know. I have an issue, I freaking say something. But, like my sister reminds me ALL THE TIME I need to be compassionate with these people because they love and miss Isis and it must be hard on them that we're in my country. About a week ago Chris (Bec's husband) also posted a photoshopped picture of my brat. And I told them both online and in-person that I recognised the skill that went into the photo and the humour but please don't do it again. My FIL is friends with all of us so saw this exchange. (He often comments during Skype on a conversation I've had with my sister, but that's for another blog).

Back to Sunday, we were Skyping with the in laws and my FIL has the brilliant idea to bring this subject up. He goes "So I noticed you never commented on the photo I made of Isis for Canada day" shit man, way to put me on the spot! So I'm like "My mother taught me that if I can't say something nice I shouldn't say anything at all" and I thought he'd drop it. Nope. He tells me he thought I might have felt that way about it, because he read the convo I had on Chris's photo. Why are you bringing it up then old man?!
I did my best to explain my view on it, firmly and politely, but only time will tell if he got it. He kept making excuses up about it and saying it was just funny and safe and blahdy blah. I pointed out to him also how offensive that shit is from a patriotic standpoint too. (Which originally was something Obi felt before I did, oddly enough)

He didn't apologise or anything of course, because he's always right. And I'm still irked over it. Because I know he bought it up just to push my buttons when I was trying so damn hard just to let it go. GRRR. Hoping that ranting this out will enable me to let it go. I hate how I get hung up on stupid crap.

My tea ran out. I think I'll make another. Luce will feel me on this one - I think I'm addicted to the caffeine again. Like, I feel that I can go without it, but if I don't have a cuppa by mid-day I'll get this awful splitting headache. Now I thought it might be dehydration, so I tested it by drinking lots of water. Nope, same problem. Headache recedes within minutes of having caffeine. So I'll need to do something about that. Not today though.

Thinking of Isis and dumping her on Bec... We ended up going back for dinner, because Bec had made a big feed thinking their new housemate would be home but she wasn't. And Bridezillaz was on the telly. I think it's crap, but then I think most TV is shit hence why I don't watch it. Anyway, Isis was sitting on the armchair "watching" it. And I didn't even think about it. She's like a sack of sugar right? Does she even know they are people on the TV or does she just see colour? Well this Bridezilla walked up and hit her fiancee in the face... and Isis lost it. Bawled her eyes out. O.O I think it's safe to say that at 8 months she's understanding a lot more than I'd have thought. I'll be speaking with Bec (and anyone else who has her) about age-appropriate viewing from here on in!

I'm done now.