I read all of the stories on here about how hard it is to say goodbye and I think about how hard it already is to say goodbye at the end of our phone calls and I can't help but wonder if I'll be able to handle goodbye at the end of our little vacation this November. I know that meeting and spending time together is going to be amazing but I also know that it's probably going to make being away from him even more difficult. He's not sure exactly when he'll be able to move to the states and the US isn't exactly accepting lots of new immigrants so it could be years yet. And we also don't know when our next meeting will be because this trip is draining a lot out of both of our savings. So when we say goodbye after only 11 nights together, we'll be doing so without the comfort of knowing when we'll see each other again. How are we going to be able to handle that? How am I going to be able to walk away from him and get on the plane? How can we say goodbye?