So, pretty much all I talk about lately on here is our meeting in November. But I'm just so dang anxious! We're booking our flights on Tuesday (day I get paid). We're both super anxious to book the flights. We both feel like after we do it will feel more real, more obtainable.

I spoke to my manager more in depth about when I'll be going and such and now have a definite yes and know exactly what I need to do to make it happen. Part of the "what I need to do to make it happen" is cut off a day and a half. Super sad, but I'll give up that much to finally see him. So he'll be flying here on Monday the 15th and then we'll fly together to California. We've also kinda changed our plans. We're now going to leave on the 23rd. We're going to fly back to Utah (where I live) and he's going to meet my family. He'll then leave the 24th at 5:00 PM. I'm so freaking excited to finally see him. Most of you know, I've been counting down since May. We've gone from 160 days to just 69. The time has seemed to pass both slowly and quickly. But it's only two months away. Only 10 weekends away. Only 5 paychecks away.

I just can't wait to finally know what it feels like to be wrapped in his arms, to feel his breath on my neck, to feel him between the palms of my hands. Real, tangible, alive. I can't wait to be able to say good morning without touching my computer. I can't wait to share our first hug, first kiss, the first time we look into each others eyes with nothing to say, the first "I love you" whispered into an ear, the first night next to each other, the first picture together, and, yes, even the first goodbye.

We'll part from each other with memories and an idea of what life will be like when we're finally together. We'll part knowing every contour and expressioin of the others face, we'll know the texture of the others hand and how it fits with our own, we'll know the heat of the others lips and the feel of our bodies next to each other. We'll part knowing what life with the other is like, instead of just the view from the other end of a webcam.

I know this was a little long winded and rambling, but I'm bored at work and just getting the words out of my head.

I expect to be posting soon in the forums about the trip and what to expect. I apprieciate everyone's support and comments and advice. This site has helped me come a long way in my relationship. When I joined here, we had been together less than three months. And look at us now; coming up on 9 months and about to meet for the first time. Thanks for all your help and continuing support.