So, the last visit to UK was a success.

Two weeks spent with my SO and my kido, while didn't really allowing me to relax, were spent together, having fun, visiting and kinda chilling.

Kido
Oliwia was... way better behaved than I thought she would be. She tried to get our attention and got borred easily but other than that she enjoyed playing with lego, video-gaming (I don't have console at home) watching films (She caught up on Marvel universum) and spendng time with me, my SO and surprisingly his parents and naphew.
Her english is getting better, which is really nice, she still can't really speak it but is not afraid to use it anymore. She also really love it in UK she said it unasked.

Adam
He is... as lovely and amazing as always. He prepared whole Christmas dinner and made it deliciously amazing. He also is showing his moany side, oh does he moan about things... half jokingly but still.

Me
I loved the visit and enjoyed it very much. Just having Adam y my side helped my mood and nerves instantly. There was traffic, Oliwia sulking, forgotten things, failed cheescake and changed plans and just the fact that I wasn't alone in all this... mad me feel better.


It is amazing how after two years I still feel the same tearing in my heart as I did the first time we parted ways two years ago. We had a fight because he was stubborn ass and I was PMSing but still, he sent oliwia to hug me first and then came to hug me and appologize himself... and my daughter looked and said 'dad never behave like that with you'.
Me and Oliwia mad a total mess out of the flat.


The finall realization confirms what I suspected earlier though. THERE is my home. A place where I'm coming back. Here in poland is just a 'place I live in' Excluding my parent's flat whi will be my home forever in some way. It's also not about Adam living there it's the feeling of belonging there. Everything is right where it should be, like it should be.
And even though I didn't drive a car there after coming back to PL i reacted with "OMFG WHY ARE WE DRIVING ON THE WRONG SIDE OF ROAD?!" and then remembered it's the right side.
I sat down and thought what THINGS I'd miss if I left everything in PL. The answer surprised me. Only my Laptop + the things i might need (personal papers for example).
After moving I will miss my family, my BFF and few other people but when it comes to things... I could leave everything behind... just have something to wear.

74 days to closing the distance and now I know I won't have to send too many things over.