What is this pain I feel now? Is just pain or is it something more? This just only bearable pain in my chest that hurts me so. It hurts like a dagger being stabbed through my heart as I see my beloved slowly getting away from me. This pain, it makes my heart have a woe that feels like no other. Is this the pain of missing the person you hold dear in your heart? Is this the pain of having pushed the one you love and hold dear farther away each day? It feels like I am bleeding this blood as it slowly drains me of my spirit and might. The pain can only go away with time and this writing of said pain. I look at myself once again and find myself to be a mess in regards to my emotions. This pain made me realize that I can go on and push through another day as each comes to pass me in different ways each time. My heart feels this ache of longing and pain, why does my heart ache this way?

Am I just over reacting on a simple pain that has always been with me for as long as I can remember? This pain.....It's made me think of what has happened to cause it and how to fix it. Can this pain really be fixed by time and writing? I wish that this aching pain of woe would wash its self away as soon as it came but it has come to stay until it wishes to leave. Perhaps instead it is actually staying until I wish it to leave and for now, I do not wish for it to wash away as it is a sign of my humanity and emotions. Maybe this pain is a way to cope with no signs of affection from my beloved. Whatever this pain is, I wish it would go away yet I wish that it would stay.