There are times I hate the time zones that keep us apart. He is so busy working, and when he's working, he has very little time to chat, because he can't text and drive, for obvious reasons, and his job keeps him on the road most of the time, working 70 hours a week. Add to that the fact that he has a busy life in general with family responsibilities, going out with his Football Club friends, to movies, sports, etc., and needing time to unwind alone...it's a wonder he has time for us at all.

Now it's about to get even busier, for me. I have been virtually a recluse for far too long, for various reasons, but I just got my car fixed and back on the road, and I have some definite plans for myself, which means less time for waiting around on Facebook, hoping to catch him on a break. And now he has decided he needs to give more time and attention to his kids (the youngest one is a teenager), and I am being forced to take better care of myself by getting back on a normal sleep pattern and getting more sleep, which means no more waiting until 5-7:00 am, or later, to chat when he gets off work. Now I'm really wondering when and how we will find time for us. We have been winging it for a long time, and it is very sporadic. I'm afraid it will get even more sporadic now.

The other thing that gets me is he is in such a rush all the time, I honestly wonder if he reads the messages I send him. He sometimes doesn't comment on them, even things that I know he would enjoy. He didn't even comment on the photos I sent him of me wearing the team colors of our favorite AFL Football team (Aussie Rules Football), with my jacket the same colors as his, but opposite, when he was watching them on TV last night.

I MISS HIM!!! I don't want us to drift away because of the distance, time zones, and lack of scheduling. I don't have a clue how to schedule all this anyway. And he seems to be content with sporadic chat, and occasional Skype. Or maybe he is just resigned to the fact that this is how it has to be for now.