Lately it seems as though I've been stressing about everything. I have so many things going on right now that I don't know what to focus on..My love is the only one who I can talk to and feel like everything will be okay. He's going through stressful times as well, and it's hard to help him from 8,000 miles away...I feel so helpless when he needs me. We've been arguing about silly stuff, and I want it to go away. Life back home is so different compared to life with my SO. I'm anxious to move over there and start my life with him. Time is going by so slowly..

We're living different lives right now, and it's so strange. I got used to waking up to him every morning, now, all I wake up to is an empty bed. Before we had met, I never felt this lonely and the time apart wasn't getting to me. It was okay that we were living separate lives away from each other because we had our own priorities. I was never too worried about when we'd see each other because we had to get through school first get used to living independently after finishing. Things are so different now, our relationship has matured and we're ready to leave our separate lives and start a new life together.

This will all work out in the end, it's just a matter of when.

~S