So as everyone knows, the holidays are coming up quick. Over here, that means colder weather and snow. I guess I'm pretty bummed that my SO can't be here..I was looking forward to having someone to cuddle during the cold winter nights. It's not the first time we've been apart for the holidays, but this year feels different. I was with my SO and his family for them and I felt like that was the first time in a long time that I've had a real Christmas and New Years.

Because of everything going on with my family and how much it's changed, we haven't celebrated anything really. Now I'm NOT talking about getting presents. I'm talking about spending time together as a family. Since my parent's divorce, everything has changed so much. My SO's family feels more like my family rather than my own..I don't mind, I really like his family. I guess I just want to feel like that over here as well.

This the the year I will be home for Christmas and the New Year, so I want to make it really good. Even though it's just me and my mom, I want to have a good time. My mind can't stop comparing last year though. His family treated me like I was a part of theirs. It was a feeling I have not felt for a long time. I loved it over there and I can't help but compare my life here compared to over there.

I don't know if any of that makes sense, but venting helps me cope with things that I go through. I'm staying positive because once I get through the holidays, my SO and I will be together again.

~S