I feel a lot better than I have in weeks (maybe even months). I still have some worries about my health issues and how I'm going to survive that 15 hour plane ride. At the moment, I'm downloading relaxing music to my iTunes and I'm going to put them on my phone. I'm making sure I'm prepared for this. I have some heated socks for the plane and I may bring a blanket and a pillow. Thankfully I have a window seat, so I'll be able to lean against that (I didn't sleep very well last time). I'm staying positive and keep telling myself "You can do this! Just think of how happy you'll be when you see him."
My SO thinks I'm staying here to sort things out. So in a way, I'm surprising him. I've sorted things out with his mum, which means I have a ride from the airport.
I think this whole situation with me going to see him will be good for me. He said that he would take care of me and help me get back to my normal life. That's better than if I stayed here at home.
In relationship, I've discovered how difficult international relationships are..Even though we've gone through tough times with being apart, I still love him and my relationship.
I know this will all work out in the end!
~S
