Finally it's getting closer. I've still been struggling quite a lot but since my dad started having health problems, I've been fairly preoccupied with all that stuff. Fortunately he seems much better finally and I can focus on other things.

This has definitely been one of the most difficult and also the weirdest times with the distance thing. I've had mood swings like crazy. For some reason I've been in love more than ever and feeling extremely affectionate. It feels like my heart is bursting. So first I'm all lovey dovey and the next minute I could be bawling my eyes out. It seems that I've got over the worst bits now, though, but it's been a hell of a ride.

I think the biggest problem after my three month visit was the fact that we don't have an end date. I was planning on having a conversation about that when I'm visiting again, but of course I had one of my slumps after a night out with friends. I was a bit tipsy and that doesn't really end well when you're feeling sad at the same time. So obviously I texted him saying that we need to start sorting this out, cause I can't take this much longer. We still don't have an end date, but at least we talked about it. He said I could move there right away if I wanted to, but since his living situation is a bit crowded at the moment, I'd like to wait till his brother moves out. That should happen next year, might be even next spring if all goes well! That would be a dream come true.

I'm visiting on the 17th of Dec for three weeks and hopefully we can talk about closing the distance in more detail then.