It's funny how failures always seem like a big deal at the time, but when you think about it, they steer us in the correct way after all. I started thinking about this couple of days ago when I came back from England. Dad picked me up from the airport and he quite often likes to tell me what an amazing couple we are with my boyfriend and he always finds it peculiar how people can meet their soulmates like that. He told me that it must have been meant to be. When I started thinking of the times before I met my boyfriend, I noticed that I had more or less failed at everything.
I had a couple of so-called relationships that had failed. Due to this, I decided to go abroad to kind of grow as a person. I went down the au pairing route, which eventually failed as well. We didn't have any kind of chemistry with the host mum and I just couldn't take it anymore. And neither did she. So I packed my stuff and headed back to Finland. I still wanted to do something different, so I decided to move to Helsinki and maybe study something again. I started studying but quickly realised that it just wasn't for me. Even Helsinki wasn't for me. I was lonely and living there was expensive as hell. I was completely penniless. So I had to return to my hometown. It's small and fairly boring. That boredom initially led me to online dating, where I then met my boyfriend. A bit after meeting him, I got an amazing job, which allows me to travel freely to see him.
At the time, all those failures were absolutely horrible and I was very upset. I didn't see a way out and I just thought that I'm just meant to be a loser. But without those failures, I would have never met the love of my life. Everything else just clicked into place after that. I never thought I'd have a chance working in this field and have my own schedules. It's like everything was meant to be.
Also, for some reason, Helsinki has never appealed to me. It's beautiful as hell, especially now (well recently) when it was all snowy and everything *-* (saw the pics). But I often feel like it is way less than what Finland has to offer. And other cities appealed to me more, maybe because of my former SO's influence. But dunno, from what I had heard/read too.
Also, I have read nightmares from foreign people living in small towns, so I don't imagine it to be good/fun either or anything
And maybe I am too naive, but I believe in some kind of "meant to be" and fate sort of thing, not that everything is pre-written for us, just that our choices and everything are joined with some kind of natural law and it all clicks in the end. I have always felt so myself, that whenever I was in a bad or awful situation it had lead to good things too overall and everything had brought something good/positive in my life.
Okay, enough rambling for me I wish you both best of luck and lots of happiness in future :3
I totally agree with you. And I'll try to remember that next time when I get myself into a crap situtation, lol. All the best to you too.
And I have always loved the way it looks