This will be a medium sized blog. my life as it stands I feel stuck. I dont have a job *need a first job* and Im almost 21 years old. I still live with my parents, whom stress me out at times but I still love them. Im at a community college and feeling like Im going slow as a slug towards my degree. In short IM PISSED OFF in a sense...I mean I wish I was at 4 yr or having a full time job. Moved out being able to pay for bills (which Im scared of thanks to my parents stressing me out about paying for myself), being out there own my own sounds nice but Im also scared of being out there. My mom thinks I need to live by myself for a little while before B moves in "because I need to mature and grow up." Those are her quotes exactly.Now she gets on me about my weight *which on my side my emotions about my weight go up and down but when she nags me about it daily my emotions sky rocket down*. I feel pathetic, my sister says I should be embarrassed to still be living here. I am in a sense but at the same time Im worried that if I move out my parents will move away *they have been talking about going to Florida and we live in WA state*--I got so much going on in my head. I feel exhausted from school I want a break but I need to find work. As it stands I dont even feel like going to a 4 year. My dream now is to work in the Bridal industry at like Davids Bridal or be a wedding photographer.(I love weddings). Anyway, and I also dream of being married to B and having kids.
The only question is when is my life going to start? Seriously though, I feel like Im still in high school mode, and Im an adult. It sucks...
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Have you thought about transferring to a four year college if you are unhappy with the community college? Right now, I'd just focus on finding a job then see if you could make enough to support yourself before moving out. I moved out, couldn't support myself, kind of crashed and burned, moved in with my SO, went back to school, and now live with my parents again. When I could've just stayed, found a better job, then moved out and saved myself all the trouble.
Living out on your own isn't that scary. Paying for things isn't hard. It's math, that's all. Once you have an income you can work out how much you earn in a fortnight or month (I don't know how often you pay rent in the states, but here in Canada it's once a month, so I do my budget monthly). Work out how much money you can expect to have in a month. Then work out how much rent you are likely to pay for what you need (Read: NEED. Lots of people rent houses far bigger than they need and they pay extra for things like a garage, better dacor, open fireplaces etc. You don't need that stuff, you need something that keeps you out of the rain and has doors that lock.). Rent can go as high as half your income if utilities are included. You need to budget in trasnsport/getting to and from work. Work out what utilities will cost you if they aren't included in the rent. Pay your bills BEFORE you buy anything else and you will always be fine. It's really not the horror your parents make it out to be - you just need to think and have a little discipline.
On the job front, only you know what to do. But I hope something falls into place for you soon.
Your life can start whenever you want it to. You just need to step up and take control of it. It's really that simple.