Have not yet "broken up with my boss"/quit -- I'm afraid of not having a job, so I have still been searching. I do have a very promising lead, however, so please keep your fingers crossed for me! A bummer of the current job is that free and massively discounted things I would be purhcasing anyway have me wrapped around its fingers.
I have done a bunch of training outside of work, and thus have earned various products, etc that cannot, unfortunately, be forwarded to me. Hoping those finish up soon! Thankfully my boss has been cordial, so it has not been complete hell. Meanwhile I am waiting to hear about acceptance into some programs beginning this fall, very anxious, but I enjoy waiting for a letter to come in the mail, as they say. (Well, and literally. I love mail.
) I had to take a class in order to be applicable, so I'm doing it online and began just the other day -- it's quite fun, actually. It isn't too difficult, I can pace myself accordingly, and the professor seems very sweet. The wonders of technology!I have seen my SO -- er, ex -- several times in the past weeks. First to gather some of my things: that was unbelievably uncomfortable. But we ended up going grocery shopping, and as odd as that sounds it seemed just normal, and comfortable, and eased some of the hurt. We didn't speak for most of the trip. Just were, together. Last week he actually came over and took me out to dinner -- something we hadn't done in months before the break up. We ended up going to his brother's apartment and hung out over coffee with him and his partner. Yesterday, however, he showed up unexpected. We went for a walk seeing as it was a beautiful day, but he revealed to me that he was absolutely broke, has only a couple hundred dollars left to his name after this month's bills. He didn't ask for anything (which is not his style, but kind of what I expected after being told he had nothing) but he also doesn't have any plans to make any extra cash, or find a second job, etc.
I don't find money to be everything, of course. But this, sick as it sounds, helped justify my decision. He isn't...trying to go anywhere. I do know he still wants to be together (obviously) -- he keeps referring to this as just "a break, a step back." I know I shouldn't be seeing him, should just cut off contact...but I am weak. He is my best friend.
I had written a lot more, but it turned out too pathetic and sad and more of "shit, my life is a mess," so I'll leave that for next time. Now i need to be productive in some way or another...seeing as it is 1:30 pm on my day off and I have done just about nothing.
It is good you seem to find some clarity as to why you broke up and how to go about it.
I can't say if seeing your ex that much is good or bad, but it really depends on how you feel about it. Do what feels right! If hanging out with your best friend feels good, then don't refrain from it, just be vary, because he has still feelings for you and I really don't want you to suffer