I was into JPop. I liked a JPop group called Morning Musume. I entered this fandom in mid-2006. I was completely crazy over them. The fanservice, the pretty Japanese girls, the kawaii, kakkoii, boyish and conceited girls. Many personalities together and nice bubbly songs.

I also shipped many yuri couples (they were all girls and they were very friendly with each other). I was into shipping mainly 1 couple and I'd read fanfics on end of this couple in particular. Their ship names were 1444 and IshiYoshi.

One day there was this new fic that I decided to give a try. It was very dramatic and full of twists. I was late to the bandwagon and had many chapters to catch up. At that time, I was on my 2nd year of college, so I had nothing better to do (study, who?). I sat through about 10 chapters of pure drama and flashbacks. The fic really caught my attention.

I'd also comment on individuals threads. Each member of the group had their thread, and I'd go over there and post my reactions to new pictures, videos, gifs and so on. I'd go to this specific idol's thread a lot in many forums, so one member decided to PM me with a forum dedicated to that one idol. I hesitated at first but then a random day at the end of '06 I just decided to join.

I posted not only about the idol, but about myself too, as they were a very social group and very restrict too, everyone knew one another, some of them had met IRL. Some of them were already friends and I liked those people, so I posted abuot myself too, why not? I was the only active Brazilian though and most of them were from the US, so I saw no problem in giving my information and posting pictures of me.

There was also another thread (and a forum dedicated to) Ships. Specific threads for specific ships with this one idol. And I quickly became a poster of the 1444 thread. Me and another girl: the AUTHOR of that fic I'd read on the more general forum. We chatted a bit through forum posts and we became IshiYoshi buddies. Always posting about our delusions of the_1444 couple.

I saw a thread about IRC chat that they had recently reopened. And just one random day I decided to join it. I had nothing. better, to. do, as I said in the beginning.

On the first day, I don't think much happened, but at some point in the other days, my IshiYoshi_buddy joined and it was the first time we got to chat on a sort of IM. With alerts of when the other had replied and all. I also met her boyfriend, who was one of the few male members. He was very popular among the members, because he was one of the very few most active male forum user. I felt very left out, because I was the new guy and everyone else was so close already.

She was the one to give me the most attention out of everybody. She was very inquisitive, and I was a lot more self-centered back then, so I loved to be asked questions and I'd promptly answer them. We became closer and closer, took it to private on IRC, then took it even more private to msn. We became friends. We'd talk about our lives, studies (what again?), websites we liked (back then I was into 4chan A_LOT, so I had no shame and spoke my mind scarily openly). And I learned that she was in a Long distance Relationship with that guy. He was from Cali while she lived (lives) in Miami. Opposite coasts.

This was '07 already and in the month of April of that same year, I get flowers delivered to my door. I find it incredibly strange, but I immediately know who they're from. I got the flowers while watching a drama called "Densha Otoko". I was also chatting with my newest friend about it.

Anyway, In the flowers was a letter. A letter from the one who I thought I'd lost already: my most regreted ex. Regreted because 2 years after having broken up (this is another story, but we had a very disturbed/ing relationship and we hand't had closure back then in '05, it ended much abruptly) I thought SHE was the one. I actually thought she had been the one and I'd lost her, but NO_OOO_OO_O. There she was, writing a letter to me, stating she missed me and wanted me back.

I don't remember much of what happened in detail, but I ended up calling her. But not before telling the_friend more about that relationship and especially not before the end of the drama episode.

[END OF CHAPTER 1]

trivia: I'm a sensor (ISFJ if you're familiar with Jung typology), so I tend to be very detailed in everything I do. I also take pride in my honesty, so I won't exagerate something that wasn't as such. For example: "He was the ONLY BOY in the group". I'll never say that if I'm not sure he was the absolute 1 boy in a group of girls. I tend to be the most precise I can in providing informations: if I'm not sure, I won't make a statement, I'll tell you I'm not sure and I'll use indicating words such as: around, about, close to, a little over/less, etc.

I intend on having more chapters and I'll force myself to write them, promise. Not necessarily to eventual readers but for myself. I'd never relived our story so vividly and detail filled like this. Oh, all the memories are still here if I think hard enough.

TTFN.