So I'm planning on flying out in 3 months and been looking at flight prices and times today and I'v kind of just realised how real this all is and it's exciting but scaring the hell out of me at the same time.

Like I've never flown before, I'm going away for an entire month to a different country away from my friends and family to visit a guy for the first time but I feel like it is the right thing to do in my life right now.

I keep fighting back the negative comments, half of my family won't talk about it, thankfully some of them are supportive of me.

I have that huge fear that I guess a lot of you have gotten, what if I turn up in the US and he doesn't show up or he isn't who I thought he was.

Nervous, scared and excited.