I think I've convinced my mom and sister that our post-graduation summer trip should be in Cali! That means I'll get to see my SO at the end of august, which is right after our early July visit. Since we've been going 6 months between visits for the last 3 visits, just 1 month sounds like goddamn heaven! Looking at a 6 month wait from the wrong side is pretty soul-crushing . We won't have to go through the awful end-of-visit blues next time and just enjoy the idea of being together again in 4 weeks.

I have to figure out where I'll be sleeping. Mother, even though I'm 22, will probably never be okay with the idea of premarital sex or even me sleeping in the same bed as my SO. The fact that she came around to the idea of dating is a wonder in itself. I'll probably stay in a hotel with them and then extend my own time in Cali after they leave.

I'm also really, really excited to have my SO and my family in one place. I don't want my family and my SO to be in two completely different worlds forever. They're the three people who mean everything to me, and while it'll probably get a bit awkward at times.. I don't care. My sister and my SO have a ton in common, and while sister will probably be super shy at first, I'd be so happy to see them get along. Sister's been living a bit of a double life herself. I told her about my SO way before I told mom, and mom's been adamant she doesn't want me to "tell"/corrupt my little sister too. So the kid's been lying for me for 4 years .

I really needed this. I've been so stressed with school and money and ..my entire future, it's really nice having something work out.