5 weeks to go and I will be getting on the plane to America! I'm excited but a little nervous about flying on my own but I'm sure I will be okay!

I'm having a real chew on trying to get some decent travel insurance sorted out, I had retina detachment in both eyes last year and I had to have invasive surgeries on my eyes pretty much one after the other! luckily all is well and I don't have to see my consultant again till January 2016 but now it means I have to declare it on my travel insurance and I'm trying to find a decent company to go with who wouldn't mess me around if anything was to go wrong as obviously America is expensive with healthcare!! I also need to do my wavier but I'm not in a rush at the moment with that, my priority is the travel insurance of course!
If anyone has any suggestions that would be great!

A few people at work know about my relationship which is fine but this week everyone seems to be asking the same question, "Tracey, Are you going to go live in America eventually?" I have no idea where I will end up in the future.

Shannae has just got her dream job which is amazing for her at her age, but we are only 7 month into this relationship, the distance is hard some days but we obviously don't want to rush into moving or anything and there is the whole visa situation to think of too.
I think we may end up talking a lot more about our future when we are together in a few weeks time, in the end we will want to live together someday either in England or America but it factors on a lot of things but it is something to think about and maybe plan in loose terms.

We have both spoken of how it would affect each other personally moving 5000 miles to be with the other person, Shannae is very close to her family and she sees her mom and sister every day, I only see my mum a few times a month as she left me, my sister and our dad when me and my sister were 14, she walked out on us as she was having an affair with dad's best friend at the time. It totally broke the whole family apart and dad could never forgive her or him, when dad sadly passed away after me and my twin turned 18 my mum found out and actually laughed in my face about it it was a horrible time but me and my sister have made bridges with our mum because she is our mum and I could never hate her forever for what she did, I'm sure dad would be glad we get on now as it would be very hard not having any parents at all but obviously the relationship will never be the same.

I think about it a lot, where will I be in 18 months -2 years time, I know a lot can change in that time but I can see myself moving to America to be with Shannae, she's worked hard to get her degree and her masters degree too, she has landed her dream job which she wasn't expecting at all, she is so close to her family and I can't see her wanting to move away too far from them but it's something to think and discuss when we get together! My family just say to me "Go travel, go new places don't stick around here if you don't want to" and these next few years I aim to travel more.

I have a lot on my mind right now but I'm happy, I can't wait to see where the future takes me, I've learnt a lot in the last few years but its all experience and I can't wait to get to Arizona and meet Shannae's family too even though I am feeling a little nervous about that too! I'm sure it will be fine!

Sorry to ramble, I'm off to go get some summer clothes packed and make some lists of things to take!