We were planning on him visiting sometime in the fall. For months, I kept asking what and when he plans on visiting me. He always puts me off and says it will be soon. And because he hasnt found a decent job in the Netherlands, he finds it difficult to shell out money for the visit. I told him I'll help cover his accommodation when he gets here. But he feels uncomfortable about it. I cant let him stay at my house because I live with my grandparents, so that isnt an option.

Back then, I offered if I could visit and I noticed that he's not to keen about it because he lives with his parents. Yesterday, he just asked me if I wanted to visit there because it'll be cheaper for him to travel anywhere in Europe.

Since I got a new job, I am skeptical of taking a week or two off for a europe trip because I dont want to risk losing that job. I would rather have him come here, help him find a job, and cover some of his expenses than go to europe. for now.

So the fall visiting plans is current up in the air. and im probably just ranting. and sad and upset.