I think a lot about our future, hoping we will have one but also becoming a bit sad not knowing when or if we can close the distance 
I would love to have a count down, even if I knew it was 2 years from now.Holiday time!
In less than a week, my husband and I will go to Turkey and stay there two weeks together with SO, then I will have two weeks alone with him. My husband will have a "real" holiday, I will probably do a combination of project studies, language studies, yoga and sun/swiming like I usually do. SO will work. If he does tatoo studio work I will probably go with him for that...plus my husband wants to get a tatoo (I got one on my last trip - an owl on my leg).At home a lot has changed.
Husband and I finally sold the old flat, moved into the new one and started the process of buying furniture,planning changes and setting our economy straight. We earned a whole lot on the sale and invested in new floors etc. in the new flat. I got rid of lots of old debt I am very frugal these days. But looking at my finances, I don't think I can keep up travelling to Turkey much. I want to get rid of more debt, save, be able to afford having a kid. Also,all my travels is wearing on my boss. I will probably get a steady position there in the fall. She asked me if maybe now that I have an office in the new flat I will consider a different sceme at work. She has been very generous so far. So I don't blame her at all. I want to keep travelling until November because we have a contract on the flat - but I don't know what we will do as a family next year
I see two solutions:
1) He uses the fall to learn Norwegian. I sweettalk the people I know into giving him a job. Then he can move to my city on a 1 year work visa. I can still sometimes take time off to read, but instead of going to Turkey for 8 days I can stay just long weekends at the cabin or go to the capital. On bigger holidays the whole family can visit Turkey. He will basically live here. With a Norwegian salary he can afford a flat on his own, and I can live in both flats.
2) we will get him a visitor visa for February-April next year. I can enroll him in an express language class here. He can meet more of my friends. The new sofa in our living room can be turned into a double bed, there is also a large single bed in the office. He could meet the potentional work people. He could try out more things,we could travel. When he went back home, we could shift to see each other one week every other month. That would still be a lot. That would make it easier for me to take up more work and save money. We could stay somewhere smaller in Turkey,so he could save money too. Then later we would figure out what to do.
For a while I felt so calm. But I miss him so much! I sometimes feel like my heart will break
I hope we can have a future Even if we could somehow marry, you need a full time job to get "family reunion" visa, and I am not there yet. I think about kids a lot 
I think about making SO happy, and my husband happy. I think about visiting SOs family in the fall.I think about doing my next project in Turkey.But so far, summer... My 2nd with him!
And I find comfort in that I understand part of what Hadise sings in her new song:
Good luck with everything!
Anyway, good luck with everything!