Visiting SO (november) was great. We rented a new place and SO was lucky enough to get several days time off. A common friend of ours was visiting, she was planning to get married when she was there and we went hiking together and played pool all 4+ of us.
SO tried to make me talk about the future when I was there. I did not feel ready but since I have thought, we really should, shouldn't we?
I was hoping to be finished with my studies this spring, but I have not found a practice place so I have to take the rest of it in the fall. I guess it could be a blessing in disguise, because in order to buy my ex - now ex husband - out of our flat, I really should be working full time. I dont mind working in the teacher temp company, even if a longer temporary job would be nice I usually feel at home - I guess I have tuned into the "teacher vibe" somehow.
This new year, I was able to Skype with SO both on my birthday (which is the day before NYE) and at midnight at NYE, and we was with his family both times. They told me how much they miss me, which I thought was very touching. I was not able to go there as SO had gotten a 2 week time off at a very short notice (compared to the rules in my country, that would not even be legal!). I had promised my family to arrange Christmas, plus tickets are not cheap short notice around NYE.
My SO has been bugging met to have a "future talk", which has made me surprisingly emotional (I ended up promising we will do it next visit). I mean, my divorce is settled and we know we want to be together, so why am I nervous? Perhaps because I know what not only marriage and relocation, but also having children, are things we need to talk about. And he is not the best person to make plans with, not even about simple things like tickets! It is so hard! But I guess I have to pick up some courage and just go for it. It is not like I don't know what I want....
