It's almost as if we are living the same life. We too have to wait another 2 or 2 1/2 years before we can get married and finally close the distance. My best friend since birth got married last year and her attitude towards me has completely changed; she is always talking about how "grown up" and "adult" she is now because she's married. Yes I believe that her and her husband do truly love each other, but they were only together for 3 months before they got engaged and maybe 5 months when they actually got married. In some ways I envy her only because she gets to spend as much time as she wants with her SO, but then I stop and think how much better I am going to have it than she does. Neither her or her husband have a college education (I'm not knocking that at all, my parents both only have a high school diploma and they are still married), he is currently drawing unemployment and they are basically living off of her $8/hour job (I make more than she does, and I work at a daycare). They live in an itty-bitty apartment and I know that they can't be as happy as they want to be simply because they are just plain broke and they have to stress over their bills and rent. This makes me so much more confident in our decision to wait until we are finished with college to get married. We can then spend more time focusing on our relationship and just finally enjoy being together instead of worrying about how we are going to pay our house payment. I have been feeling the same way that you are, but both of us are doing the right thing for our relationships. We can do this!!

Thank you both! Both of those posts really helped me.

AJD+JLH - I really admire your ability to come to terms with everything and be okay with it! I've always been a perfectionist and a planner so it's diffiicult for me. I have to make my attitude more like yours. You are my inspiration! <3

Eclaire - You always have great advice! She didn't plan for the baby but I'm glad she's embracing her pregnancy and not going crazy. I realize it's going to be insanely difficult for her; that's why I want to wait (because every time I see a baby I go OMG SO CUTE and then I remember it's more than just pure cuteness haha). I try to keep it in perspective like you said but it's so hard. Thanks for the kind words <3

This is why I love this site. In real life when I say this stuff, everyone is like "Calm down Ellen. You're a crazy person." But you guys understand me!

rach92g - We are living the same life! My best friend since 7th grade has been talking about getting married soon to her boyfriend of three months and it's making me worried since she only has her GED and he has a lousy paying job. I just want to knock some sense into her. Plus she does this with every guy she dates and most of them turn out to be real jerks It's good to know someone else is in my shoes. We can do this! Just tell my friends to stop getting married :/ Hahah.