Hello,
As you can see there's only 2 or 3 miles between me and the woman I really love.
To ease you I'll break that into sections.
1). Before we talked about getting into relationship
2). The long conversation(s)
3). After that - seeking for solution
You will see also Sad part and Happy part things.
Happy part
1). Before we talked about getting into relationship
- In Feb 2012, one night, I just told her she has a really natural smile.
No one has told her that, she told.
- In the end of Feb 2012 we were out with friends again, when she said
that she plans to run in the nature next Saturday. Anyone interested, she asked?
I'm interested, I said, because I've been training long distance running in the past.
At that time I still accepted her as a friend from the company.
- In March and April we were running together 3 to 5 times. Every time we walked
and talked each other, maybe with hours. Now I remember how awesome it was.
- In April I slowly caught myself that probably I like her. I knew she is elder than me,
but didn't know the exact number of years difference.
- In May, she invited me to go with her friends on a summer holiday on a sunny island.
After 2 or 3 hours thinking I send her a msg that I accept. We were sending msgs each
other from time to time.
- Same month: we started chatting almost every day. I walked with her from her work
place to her home a couple of times. She accepted that with pleasure.
Sad part
- In the beginning of June, I found myself in love with that girl, or a woman, because I
finally learned how old is she. Guys, we have nine years difference. Still I loved her and
really wondered what to do.
I started asking some of my best friends and they advised me to tell her. I had almost
no choice, because it was painful to sit in the dark crying from fear.
2). The long conversation(s)
- One night in the mid June we started walking to her home after a fun meeting with our friends.
During the same day, I sent her an email telling I'd like to speak with her for something important
and she said Ok, let's speak soon, since you say it's important - she had absolutely no idea it's for
sharing my feelings with her.
- After I got enough courage I told her I have feelings toward her.
She said I'm very cute and a favorite friend. We talked around an hour - me sharing all the signs
I thought she send me and her explaining that these things actually shows that she accept me
as a closer friend.
Happy part - yes, although she didn't replied my feelings the same way I was happy, because
we were seeing each other oftentimes.
2 days later after that conversation, I told her I'd like to be ten years elder - silence - then she told me,
once she asked herself why I'm not elder (I hope that was not said from sympathy, but who knows)
3). After that - seeking for solution
After she suggested me to continue being friends, we spend almost every day of the summer together:
- going out in the park with friends
- nine days spent on an sunny island, with few friends
- a week walking in the nature: it was a journey, we had to start from one mountain and finish in another mountain
(although there were over hundred people, we were sleeping tent to tent and room to room)
- three days spent in a monastery with a couple of friends
I made her a birthday present, it was so emotional and she was so much surprised that she cried from joy.
Sad part
I had my hard time during these days, because I was still loving her. One of the last days in the island I started crying
because I felt there's nothing she feels towards me. Nothing connected with love, attraction and relationship. Even now,
when I'm writing this, some tears want to jump out of my eyes.
In mid August something happened: I invited her a couple of times to events I've personally organised and she didn't came
I've text her a couple of times and she didn't reply.
I've send her a mail or two and she didn't reply.
My plan:
- On the opposite of every signal that she is not interested in me, I decided to buy her a house - I heard she dreams about a house in a island.
Some friends advised me not to do it and that's how I decided to start sending her gifts.
.. and that's how I found this forum : )
I'm still confused, but I believe with your support you'll help me either to forget her or to win her heart.
The fact I'm writing in your forum shows I haven't stopped believing it's possible for us to be together.
For now, I decided to stop seeing her. Because I felt, she doesn't want to hurt me false believing something
is possible - that's why she started no answering, I think.
Best wishes to everyone here. I can't imagine how happy a man could be when a woman answer his feelings in
the same way and with the same deepness.
Time
As you can see there's only 2 or 3 miles between me and the woman I really love.
To ease you I'll break that into sections.
1). Before we talked about getting into relationship
2). The long conversation(s)
3). After that - seeking for solution
You will see also Sad part and Happy part things.
Happy part
1). Before we talked about getting into relationship
- In Feb 2012, one night, I just told her she has a really natural smile.
No one has told her that, she told.
- In the end of Feb 2012 we were out with friends again, when she said
that she plans to run in the nature next Saturday. Anyone interested, she asked?
I'm interested, I said, because I've been training long distance running in the past.
At that time I still accepted her as a friend from the company.
- In March and April we were running together 3 to 5 times. Every time we walked
and talked each other, maybe with hours. Now I remember how awesome it was.
- In April I slowly caught myself that probably I like her. I knew she is elder than me,
but didn't know the exact number of years difference.
- In May, she invited me to go with her friends on a summer holiday on a sunny island.
After 2 or 3 hours thinking I send her a msg that I accept. We were sending msgs each
other from time to time.
- Same month: we started chatting almost every day. I walked with her from her work
place to her home a couple of times. She accepted that with pleasure.
Sad part
- In the beginning of June, I found myself in love with that girl, or a woman, because I
finally learned how old is she. Guys, we have nine years difference. Still I loved her and
really wondered what to do.
I started asking some of my best friends and they advised me to tell her. I had almost
no choice, because it was painful to sit in the dark crying from fear.
2). The long conversation(s)
- One night in the mid June we started walking to her home after a fun meeting with our friends.
During the same day, I sent her an email telling I'd like to speak with her for something important
and she said Ok, let's speak soon, since you say it's important - she had absolutely no idea it's for
sharing my feelings with her.
- After I got enough courage I told her I have feelings toward her.
She said I'm very cute and a favorite friend. We talked around an hour - me sharing all the signs
I thought she send me and her explaining that these things actually shows that she accept me
as a closer friend.
Happy part - yes, although she didn't replied my feelings the same way I was happy, because
we were seeing each other oftentimes.
2 days later after that conversation, I told her I'd like to be ten years elder - silence - then she told me,
once she asked herself why I'm not elder (I hope that was not said from sympathy, but who knows)
3). After that - seeking for solution
After she suggested me to continue being friends, we spend almost every day of the summer together:
- going out in the park with friends
- nine days spent on an sunny island, with few friends
- a week walking in the nature: it was a journey, we had to start from one mountain and finish in another mountain
(although there were over hundred people, we were sleeping tent to tent and room to room)
- three days spent in a monastery with a couple of friends
I made her a birthday present, it was so emotional and she was so much surprised that she cried from joy.
Sad part
I had my hard time during these days, because I was still loving her. One of the last days in the island I started crying
because I felt there's nothing she feels towards me. Nothing connected with love, attraction and relationship. Even now,
when I'm writing this, some tears want to jump out of my eyes.
In mid August something happened: I invited her a couple of times to events I've personally organised and she didn't came
I've text her a couple of times and she didn't reply.
I've send her a mail or two and she didn't reply.
My plan:
- On the opposite of every signal that she is not interested in me, I decided to buy her a house - I heard she dreams about a house in a island.
Some friends advised me not to do it and that's how I decided to start sending her gifts.
.. and that's how I found this forum : )
I'm still confused, but I believe with your support you'll help me either to forget her or to win her heart.
The fact I'm writing in your forum shows I haven't stopped believing it's possible for us to be together.
For now, I decided to stop seeing her. Because I felt, she doesn't want to hurt me false believing something
is possible - that's why she started no answering, I think.
Best wishes to everyone here. I can't imagine how happy a man could be when a woman answer his feelings in
the same way and with the same deepness.
Time
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