Closing the Distance WAYYYY sooner than I Imagined! For awhile at least!
I can't believe I'm actually posting this subject already!
Soooo what happened is kinda a long story. My SO and I ended up LD because I go to a university 326 miles away from home, which he is at home as well. I really wanted to go to this university because it has a success rate of its students getting into pharmacy school (my goal) through the pre pharmacy program. Jacob (my SO) has always understood and supported me through these past two semesters. After getting a bad score on my chemistry exam today (which I'm still fuming about), I had a LONG conversation with my mother over the phone. She asked me the most important question:
"Are you sure you're happy there?"
For once I found myself stuck with no words. I realized today that I'm NOT happy here, and not just because of the distance from my family and SO. I thought that what I was going through was normal for a big university: not many friends, extremely hard classes with grad students as teachers, a roommate who puts a lot of pressure on me, not having a sense of belonging, etc. My mother pointed out a lot of important ideas, and we actually concluded that going back home and taking classes at the local college campus will actually increase my chances of getting into pharmacy school compared to the big named college that I'm at.
I made the decision today that I'm going to stay at home for my schooling from now on until pharmacy school. I feel that deep in my heart, that this is the best decision for me now. As ready as I am for handling college, I don't think I am at the point to be on my own yet. I'm not at the age where being away from everyone won't cause me as much stress as it is now. I am happy with my decision, plus that means closing the distance with Jacob! That is, until pharmacy school kicks in. :P But that's for the future. He's happy, my family is happy, and now I realize that I am feeling happy.
Yay for closing the distance!
Soooo what happened is kinda a long story. My SO and I ended up LD because I go to a university 326 miles away from home, which he is at home as well. I really wanted to go to this university because it has a success rate of its students getting into pharmacy school (my goal) through the pre pharmacy program. Jacob (my SO) has always understood and supported me through these past two semesters. After getting a bad score on my chemistry exam today (which I'm still fuming about), I had a LONG conversation with my mother over the phone. She asked me the most important question:
"Are you sure you're happy there?"
For once I found myself stuck with no words. I realized today that I'm NOT happy here, and not just because of the distance from my family and SO. I thought that what I was going through was normal for a big university: not many friends, extremely hard classes with grad students as teachers, a roommate who puts a lot of pressure on me, not having a sense of belonging, etc. My mother pointed out a lot of important ideas, and we actually concluded that going back home and taking classes at the local college campus will actually increase my chances of getting into pharmacy school compared to the big named college that I'm at.
I made the decision today that I'm going to stay at home for my schooling from now on until pharmacy school. I feel that deep in my heart, that this is the best decision for me now. As ready as I am for handling college, I don't think I am at the point to be on my own yet. I'm not at the age where being away from everyone won't cause me as much stress as it is now. I am happy with my decision, plus that means closing the distance with Jacob! That is, until pharmacy school kicks in. :P But that's for the future. He's happy, my family is happy, and now I realize that I am feeling happy.
Yay for closing the distance!
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