Hello, I'm Raelo and as you all know I'm in an LDR as well.
I've been in my relationship with my boyfriend since October 23rd, 2012, and I decided for our anniversary I'm going to write 365 things I love about him. It's going to be a little tough, but I think I'll manage
I would buy him something because his birthday is actually a few weeks after our first year anniversary, but he just wants me to save my money so I can give him the "best gift possible" by going there.
Anyways, sorry, this is in the introduction thread, not the gift thread xD
Anyways, I met my boyfriend October 22nd, 2012, and we were talking on an anime forum in the chat. He pm'd me because I was having a bad day, and then we instantly hit it off. I've always been the type of girl that wasn't looking for love because I was scared nobody could love me, so I just looked for compliments and company. I've only had two other LDRs prior to this one and I wasn't serious about them. They lasted about 1 month or less.
I've had a problem with severe suicidal thoughts since May 2011 and severe self-harm since August 2011. I was hospitalized many times, and I didn't have any hope at all. Sometimes I thought that I would meet "the love of my life," but I knew that no one would be able to handle me, and I hold much hatred towards myself.
Anyways, in October I met him, and he asked me out the next day. I really liked him because he was different from the others. We may have only talked a day at that time, but I really felt the spark between him and I. Nothing serious was going to come of it, or so I thought.
We talked everyday except for the 5 days I was hospitalized about a week after we got together. When I was gone, he messaged me on Facebook and texted me constantly, telling me either sweet things or small things about his day. He actually cared, and this was odd to me. That never happened to me before..
So he told me he loved me about 2-3 weeks after we started dating. I was too scared to, but I ended up falling in love with him.
I never told him that though, which I feel bad about still, but I ended up telling him that I fell in love with him and I got over that fear.
It's funny because no matter how much I told him that I was not capable of loving someone, he still tried. He didn't leave me like the rest.
Now I have been cut free since June 7th. I have not very many suicidal thoughts. We have not met in person yet, but we do Skype video calls literally all day everyday, and my case manager with Community Mental Health Center is helping me get a job come my birthday time. I plan to visit him next June. I live in Indiana and he lives in Nova Scotia, so we're only a 23 hour drive away, and that's good because others are farther than that, so we're lucky. My mom knows about it and fully supports it since she met him and since we have been together so long. He is like my miracle, and I am so lucky to have him <3
I've been in my relationship with my boyfriend since October 23rd, 2012, and I decided for our anniversary I'm going to write 365 things I love about him. It's going to be a little tough, but I think I'll manage
I would buy him something because his birthday is actually a few weeks after our first year anniversary, but he just wants me to save my money so I can give him the "best gift possible" by going there.
Anyways, sorry, this is in the introduction thread, not the gift thread xD
Anyways, I met my boyfriend October 22nd, 2012, and we were talking on an anime forum in the chat. He pm'd me because I was having a bad day, and then we instantly hit it off. I've always been the type of girl that wasn't looking for love because I was scared nobody could love me, so I just looked for compliments and company. I've only had two other LDRs prior to this one and I wasn't serious about them. They lasted about 1 month or less.
I've had a problem with severe suicidal thoughts since May 2011 and severe self-harm since August 2011. I was hospitalized many times, and I didn't have any hope at all. Sometimes I thought that I would meet "the love of my life," but I knew that no one would be able to handle me, and I hold much hatred towards myself.
Anyways, in October I met him, and he asked me out the next day. I really liked him because he was different from the others. We may have only talked a day at that time, but I really felt the spark between him and I. Nothing serious was going to come of it, or so I thought.
We talked everyday except for the 5 days I was hospitalized about a week after we got together. When I was gone, he messaged me on Facebook and texted me constantly, telling me either sweet things or small things about his day. He actually cared, and this was odd to me. That never happened to me before..
So he told me he loved me about 2-3 weeks after we started dating. I was too scared to, but I ended up falling in love with him.
I never told him that though, which I feel bad about still, but I ended up telling him that I fell in love with him and I got over that fear.
It's funny because no matter how much I told him that I was not capable of loving someone, he still tried. He didn't leave me like the rest.
Now I have been cut free since June 7th. I have not very many suicidal thoughts. We have not met in person yet, but we do Skype video calls literally all day everyday, and my case manager with Community Mental Health Center is helping me get a job come my birthday time. I plan to visit him next June. I live in Indiana and he lives in Nova Scotia, so we're only a 23 hour drive away, and that's good because others are farther than that, so we're lucky. My mom knows about it and fully supports it since she met him and since we have been together so long. He is like my miracle, and I am so lucky to have him <3
. I gave him the third one last Christmas - he is still turning the pages every single day and he never looks ahead at the pages to make each days message special; he did that with the last calendar too (and never got to read the first calendar obviously)
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