Hi everyone!
My name's Serena and I'm from Italy. I joined a couple of weeks ago, but I'm just now finding myself in the (maybe) right state of mind to tell you about my story and my long distance relationship.
I apologize in advance if parts of this won't make any sense, it would just be a blatant representation of the confusion I currently have inside my head.
So, my man lives in Libya. We have known each other for 13 years.
We met one amazing summer in Leeds, UK..where we were both taking english classes at the local Univeristy.
I was 17 at the time. And if you knew me, you'd know that because of a past full of health issues and hospitals, I wasn't the strongest most confident person you'd ever meet. So that was a real adventure for me, my first trip abroad in a country I barely spoke the language of.
The first day of class, this boy starts staring at me from the other side of the room. Approaches me in the cafeteria at lunch. We instantly become friends in spite of my insuperable shyness. That was the beginning of what to this day I can call the best summer of my life.
Of course, I knew he was interested in me in "that way". But I was too frightened and too inexperienced to know what to do about it....or to just do something about it! Another "minor detail" I forgot to admit to myself during that summer was that I really, really, REALLY liked him too.
To make a long story short and only report the main facts...I went back home in September and we started keeping in touch randomly by email after that.
A year later, I went back to Leeds for a wedding....and while I was walking around in the city centre, I suddenly felt the need to llook inside a McDonald's window...and there he was, right in front of my eyes, as if destiny had decided to play some kind of prank on me.
We only spent a few moments together that time, but it was enough to relight that fire in both of us. Our emailing afterwards became more frequent, we'd tell each other things nobody else knew, we'd be there for each other at bad times and stuff. He'd tell he loved me but I wouldn't take him seriously, and viceversa.
It's 12 years later. We've had marriage proposals, long times apart, even a revolution and a war in the middle. But we're still here, together. Now stronger than ever.
A few months ago, we finally decided to stop running away from each other, and to just give this a go...albeit conscious of this being the worst timing we could have possibly chosen.
Why, you might wonder...!?
Well, his life is upside down because of what's been going on in the country. He's a war hero, he was one of the original freedom fighters that started the revolution and freed Libya so...he has a lot of responsibilities and risks his life every day because of the instability in the city.
I, on the other hand, am at a point in my life where I don't know whether I want to stay in Italy or move away to try to find a better job and a better life. The situation here sucks financially, and not only in that respect.
The thing is, we are not exactly "younglins" anymore, we are both scarred by stuff we went through, and at the moment there's not even a single thing we can look forward to when it comes to our relationship.
Still....we are doing this. We are crazy in love, can never have enough of each other, couldn't live without each other. It's darn hard to go on with just texts, calls and videochats.. but I feel like what we have is more real than anything I've ever had in my life. And it's making me happier than I've ever been....even though I think it's kinda killing me at the same time.
I am aware of the fact that this might come to nothing, that extremely bad things could happen, that it could destroy me. But I can't stop, I don't wanna stop...
I joined this forums because I thought maybe I could get some insight from someone looking at this from the outside... though I now realize my being this confused and incoherent about it won't make it easy on you! lol
Please forgive my ramblings...it's good to be here among people who can actually understand how I'm feeling!
Thanks guys, looking forward to getting to know you all!
Serena
My name's Serena and I'm from Italy. I joined a couple of weeks ago, but I'm just now finding myself in the (maybe) right state of mind to tell you about my story and my long distance relationship.
I apologize in advance if parts of this won't make any sense, it would just be a blatant representation of the confusion I currently have inside my head.
So, my man lives in Libya. We have known each other for 13 years.
We met one amazing summer in Leeds, UK..where we were both taking english classes at the local Univeristy.
I was 17 at the time. And if you knew me, you'd know that because of a past full of health issues and hospitals, I wasn't the strongest most confident person you'd ever meet. So that was a real adventure for me, my first trip abroad in a country I barely spoke the language of.
The first day of class, this boy starts staring at me from the other side of the room. Approaches me in the cafeteria at lunch. We instantly become friends in spite of my insuperable shyness. That was the beginning of what to this day I can call the best summer of my life.
Of course, I knew he was interested in me in "that way". But I was too frightened and too inexperienced to know what to do about it....or to just do something about it! Another "minor detail" I forgot to admit to myself during that summer was that I really, really, REALLY liked him too.
To make a long story short and only report the main facts...I went back home in September and we started keeping in touch randomly by email after that.
A year later, I went back to Leeds for a wedding....and while I was walking around in the city centre, I suddenly felt the need to llook inside a McDonald's window...and there he was, right in front of my eyes, as if destiny had decided to play some kind of prank on me.
We only spent a few moments together that time, but it was enough to relight that fire in both of us. Our emailing afterwards became more frequent, we'd tell each other things nobody else knew, we'd be there for each other at bad times and stuff. He'd tell he loved me but I wouldn't take him seriously, and viceversa.
It's 12 years later. We've had marriage proposals, long times apart, even a revolution and a war in the middle. But we're still here, together. Now stronger than ever.
A few months ago, we finally decided to stop running away from each other, and to just give this a go...albeit conscious of this being the worst timing we could have possibly chosen.
Why, you might wonder...!?
Well, his life is upside down because of what's been going on in the country. He's a war hero, he was one of the original freedom fighters that started the revolution and freed Libya so...he has a lot of responsibilities and risks his life every day because of the instability in the city.
I, on the other hand, am at a point in my life where I don't know whether I want to stay in Italy or move away to try to find a better job and a better life. The situation here sucks financially, and not only in that respect.
The thing is, we are not exactly "younglins" anymore, we are both scarred by stuff we went through, and at the moment there's not even a single thing we can look forward to when it comes to our relationship.
Still....we are doing this. We are crazy in love, can never have enough of each other, couldn't live without each other. It's darn hard to go on with just texts, calls and videochats.. but I feel like what we have is more real than anything I've ever had in my life. And it's making me happier than I've ever been....even though I think it's kinda killing me at the same time.
I am aware of the fact that this might come to nothing, that extremely bad things could happen, that it could destroy me. But I can't stop, I don't wanna stop...
I joined this forums because I thought maybe I could get some insight from someone looking at this from the outside... though I now realize my being this confused and incoherent about it won't make it easy on you! lol
Please forgive my ramblings...it's good to be here among people who can actually understand how I'm feeling!
Thanks guys, looking forward to getting to know you all!
Serena
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