Worst Anniversary Ever
Seriously.
This was our 1-year anniversary and after realizing that my SO was keeping something from me and continually badgering him, he finally admitted to me that he had cheated on me a couple months ago after we'd gotten into a huge fight. I was LIVID.
So instead of celebrating one year together, we were fighting like crazy and flipflopping between "We should break up" and "I still love you, this sucks." We were both bawling hysterically over the phone. He seriously regrets and it and he's sorry as all hell, but he still kept this from me for months.
And on the other hand... we both do still love each other, and we want to try to stay together.
In order to do that, though, it's going to require almost completely rebuilding how we handle things from the ground up. Starting with TELLING THE TRUTH.
I feel like a moron for staying with him on one hand, but on the other hand I'm madly in love with him and part of me understands in a twisted way. I am glad he finally manned up and told the truth, too. But this is not the first time we've gotten in a huge fight as of late and things really need to change.
So we committed to actually celebrating our anniversary today, since we screwed it up so badly yesterday.
I'm just... still kind of in shock. And no matter how many times I ask myself, I do want to stay with him and try and make this work. Am I crazy? I get a 50/50 response from the masses; some say stay, some say leave. But to be honest, I love him too much, not only as a partner but as a friend, to leave him.
What a mess. Worst anniversary ever.
This was our 1-year anniversary and after realizing that my SO was keeping something from me and continually badgering him, he finally admitted to me that he had cheated on me a couple months ago after we'd gotten into a huge fight. I was LIVID.
So instead of celebrating one year together, we were fighting like crazy and flipflopping between "We should break up" and "I still love you, this sucks." We were both bawling hysterically over the phone. He seriously regrets and it and he's sorry as all hell, but he still kept this from me for months.
And on the other hand... we both do still love each other, and we want to try to stay together.
In order to do that, though, it's going to require almost completely rebuilding how we handle things from the ground up. Starting with TELLING THE TRUTH.
I feel like a moron for staying with him on one hand, but on the other hand I'm madly in love with him and part of me understands in a twisted way. I am glad he finally manned up and told the truth, too. But this is not the first time we've gotten in a huge fight as of late and things really need to change.
So we committed to actually celebrating our anniversary today, since we screwed it up so badly yesterday.
I'm just... still kind of in shock. And no matter how many times I ask myself, I do want to stay with him and try and make this work. Am I crazy? I get a 50/50 response from the masses; some say stay, some say leave. But to be honest, I love him too much, not only as a partner but as a friend, to leave him.
What a mess. Worst anniversary ever.
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