What if he forgets about me?

[Rosebud]

So I'll put it ou in the open, I have trust issues. It has nothing to do with anything my bf has ever done to me, he's never cheated on me or anything drastic like that. It's simply a personal issue of mine where I have alot of trouble in trusting people I want to get close with. Perhaps it's a defense mechanism, who knows.

Anyway, due to outside circumstance, my communication with my bf has been cut down to almost nothing. He last was able to write to me on Wednesday, telling me not to worry and that he loves me. But it's Saturday now and once again the heartache of missing him is starting to really get to me. It seems he'll have access to the internet in about a week and a half, but we both already know with his new job we still won't be talking as much as we used to.

To be honest we both knew this was coming, we'd talked about it since he'd gotten the offer to move and I knew I would see less of him than before. I thought I was prepared. But it didn't pan out the way I thought it would. Because of the situation my communication ceased with him almost instantly and I wasn't even given a proper chance to tell him good-bye, and it doesn't help that we had a big fight right before it happened.

I know I should trust him whole-heartedly when he tells me he loves and that we'll talk again soon. I really care for him so much, but I can't shake the paranoid feeling that the moment I accept his words completely that something will happen that will break us apart. He's optimistic that after his move he'll be able to call me (unlike now), and I'm still planning my trip to go see him at the end of the summer. Even so, I can't shake this dreaded feeling that during this time when he can't even sign on messenger for a second so I can tell him I love him, that I'll just fade from his mind. I hope it doesn't sound like I'm trying to pin any blame on him or say that he's a neglectful bf since he's not, I'm just afraid it's a..HUMAN thing to do-out of sight, out of mind.

Anyway, I wrote him again last night and I'm crossing my fingers he'll write me back soon. But until then I'm afraid these panicked thoughts very easily overtake my mind and I just can't concentrate on anything else

[Zephii]

Take this from someone who TRIED for months to forget about someone - including cutting all contact - It's just not that easy to forget about each other. If the love is real it will still be there, whether you can tell each other or not.
In the mean time, just make the most of the contact you do have, so that he is alwyas looking forward to it ^^;

[agentholli]

I agree with Zephi..all the way!

[Rosebud]

Thanks to you both for the positive responses. I'm pretty sure I won't get to talk to him for at least another week minimum and it's really starting to get me all sorts of depressed/worried/stressed/etc. It's really not easy for me to go from talking for hours every day to pretty much nothing at all. I'm trying not to think about it too much and instead focus on other things in hopes that it'll make the days go by faster but it doesn't seem to be working very well

[emma19911]

I understand that this must be horrible for you however just think once he gets himself sorted you will feel so much better for sticking it through. I know that is difficult to say as you are used to constant contact however this is a temporary thing I guess while he sorts himself out.

About the trust issues, being in a long distance is always difficult when you have the trust issues even if your partner didn't create them so I know what you must be going through as I often feel that I can't trust that he loves me etc just because of what I've been through.

I think you really need to find major distractions which can keep your mind busy do that you aren't so worried about how long it's been since you talked. Hobbies are great for this because you are doing something you love or try learning something new.

Hope it works out =]