Before I start:
*I am VERY spoilt as I get to spend 105 days with my girl in Estonia.
*This is our 2nd time together
*I am in a very emotional state
I am going back to Australia in 4 days from Estonia. It only just hit me that I am going home, so I broke down emotionally. She had to leave in the morning for school and I feel bad for crying in front of her because I know it was hard for her to leave, especially because I have a bad case of the flu and I've only just been able to walk around again.
I know it never gets easier to say goodbye but I do feel better knowing that I've been through it before. The first time I left, I had no idea on how I should feel or respond to the change. It took me about 2 weeks to be fully functional again. At least this time I know that I can go to the counsellor on campus and mope to them
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Furthermore we want to close the distance but it's hard as she is still in school and I transferred courses so I'm back in 1st year (so I will finish in 4 years). She doesn't finish for another 15 months. I want to do study exchange for 1 year to be close to her, which will help plus she can come to Australia on a Working Holiday Visa and live with me whilst I study. Another complication is that we will need to get married if we are to close the distance. She wants to study, and that is nigh to impossible for her in Australia because she isn't rich so it looks like I will need to move to Europe.
/end rant
*I am VERY spoilt as I get to spend 105 days with my girl in Estonia.
*This is our 2nd time together
*I am in a very emotional state
I am going back to Australia in 4 days from Estonia. It only just hit me that I am going home, so I broke down emotionally. She had to leave in the morning for school and I feel bad for crying in front of her because I know it was hard for her to leave, especially because I have a bad case of the flu and I've only just been able to walk around again.
I know it never gets easier to say goodbye but I do feel better knowing that I've been through it before. The first time I left, I had no idea on how I should feel or respond to the change. It took me about 2 weeks to be fully functional again. At least this time I know that I can go to the counsellor on campus and mope to them
.Furthermore we want to close the distance but it's hard as she is still in school and I transferred courses so I'm back in 1st year (so I will finish in 4 years). She doesn't finish for another 15 months. I want to do study exchange for 1 year to be close to her, which will help plus she can come to Australia on a Working Holiday Visa and live with me whilst I study. Another complication is that we will need to get married if we are to close the distance. She wants to study, and that is nigh to impossible for her in Australia because she isn't rich so it looks like I will need to move to Europe.
/end rant
Try and stayed focused on the positives though; when you're in a negative frame of mind you're more likely to miss opportunities to improve your situation - they aren't always obvious. I know how you feel in terms of your education; I'm trying to transfer courses too, so I'll be back to square one come September (and facing a massive hike in tuition fees, grr!). Hopefully my SO will be able to come and work in the UK for a bit but everything's uncertain on that front right now. I guess what I'm trying to say is that we all understand what you're going through 
Don't think about the fact you'll be leaving for Australia soon, just make the most of the few days you have left with your SO, and above all remember that the subsequent separation won't be forever!
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