It's been two months since he left...

[Conor]

... and the pain's still here as if he left yesterday.
He's on the other side of the world. I can't go visit him during breaks, and when I do see him it's for a very few precious weeks.
The first time that I met him, I was so nervous.. but as soon as I felt his arms around me, everything melted away. Being with my Conor felt so natural and perfect.
I was so comfortable with him I was walking around in super short shorts without even shaving my legs the day after I met him!
I don't even do that around my best friends xD
He's my everything. He heals my soul when I'm having trouble with my family, he's there for me when I'm depressed.
I'll be waiting another five months for three weeks with him, and it just doesn't seem fair at all.
He's the love of my life.
He was my first kiss, my first real romantic relationship.
He's my everything, and I get to see him for barely longer than a month a year.
I hate seeing other couples running amok happy with their relationship. :c
And I have a question: is it normal to be jealous when he wants to go out with his friends? I have this mentality that if I can't have him, no one can.
I think I'm also scared of him getting drunk and doing something regretful...
before you say "talk to him!", he already knows this. I just want to know if I'm the only one :3
How does everyone else handle not having their love with them?

[Bethypoo]

Honestly, none of us really do. We all miss our SOs the entire time we are apart and we think about it everyday. But there is a difference between thinking and dwelling. And if you are dwelling, you will ware yourself down and it will seem like the distance is twice as far and the time apart is years longer!

The only advice I can give is to stay busy. I mean, try to talk as much as you can and keep those phone/Skype dates or whatever you guys do. But go out with your friends, go to work or school, movie theaters. Just don't sit around and wait to talk to him. It makes it harder.

But all of us here know how you feel. And it is hard. I am sorry. But each day that goes by is a day closer.

[Biddlybiddlybombop]

I agree with Bethypoo.
You've had a good old mourning period, and although it's ok to miss your SO and think of him every day, you need to start accepting and adjusting to everyday life without him.
In terms of him going out and drinking... it's fun. And it's easy to have fun, drink, and not do things you regret. Stop worrying about it so much. You'll deal with that stuff if the time comes, and the extra stress is not going to make your everyday life easier.
I know you miss him. We all miss our SOs. That's why we're here - to connect with people who are in a similar situation. Start trying to concentrate on what you DO have with your SO rather than what you don't. (I'm not trying to say that feeling low about this situation is bad, but I find that if you start thinking about the happier parts of your relationship, the positivity will start trickling through.)
Good luck, and don't feel alone. You're not alone.

[Tooki]

^^^Listen to those 2!

Just do things that will keep you busy and keep your mind off the missing. Keep being positive and thinking about the good things.

Call me spoilt but I find it funny that just as I get out of the rough patch of missing my girl, I'm counting down the days until we see each other again! Try to think of things like that.

[kiara_silver]

I know how you feel, it really isn't fair, to be so far from the one you love. And no your not the only one, I get jealous over these things too lol and yes my SO knows as well. But you can't let it sit in your head, you'll drive yourself nuts trust me.
My SO is also my first. And his next visit is only 2 weeks. So I can relate.
But I agree with the above posts, just stay busy, keep your mind occupied. I also like having a countdown, theres some online, and its nice to see it tick down until you see your SO again.