A Bit Of A Positive Update:
Hey y´all!
Miguel and I have been in a bit of a slump lately. It´s been a little over a year since "The Incident" with the other girl (Maybe some of you remember me ranting on here about that), and I realized that I haven´t gotten over what happened at all. Our love has never quite been the same since it happened. There has always been a small element of mistrust there, and any time she contacts him, I get into a rage. Not cool to either of us. And besides that, lately I have been getting mad at him for Every. Little. Thing. And I mean everything. "How dare you go home to Mexico to visit your family!" "Excuse me? Bitch please, how dare you not tell me you are watching television!" " You fell asleep on me while we were texting?!? Well fuck you!" (Even though he had like no sleep for a week...)
That really needed to stop.
Yesterday and today, our "arguments" changed. They because disagreements, where we both began to understand/make the effort to see each others point of view. We have been talking about everything that has been bothering us and hurting our relationship. He told me that he has always had a tendency to think purely logically, emitting emotions. A regular Mr. Spock, if you will. It´s not that he was ignoring my feelings, he just didn´t even acknowledge that I had them. I told him that I understood everything that he said to an extent, but explained to him that he needs to take into account MY feelings as well. I also told him, finally, that I was not okay with his continuing friendship with the girl that he once left me for, for sex. As much as I tried to find peace there, knowing she was still in his life (Even though I KNOW for a fact that it was ONLY friendship now) was hurting my chances of recovering from what happened.
So I´ve taken her out of my life. I respect her as a person, but right now, I need to look after MY feelings and MY relationship. They are more important at this point. And he has agreed to limit contact as much as possible. It would be rude to outright delete her from his life at this point, but he agreed to limit their communication to the max, and to keep me informed about it.
Suddenly, the once innocent and pure love I had for Miguel came rushing back to me. I remembered what it was like to feel this deeply for him.
I´ve found the one again
Miguel and I have been in a bit of a slump lately. It´s been a little over a year since "The Incident" with the other girl (Maybe some of you remember me ranting on here about that), and I realized that I haven´t gotten over what happened at all. Our love has never quite been the same since it happened. There has always been a small element of mistrust there, and any time she contacts him, I get into a rage. Not cool to either of us. And besides that, lately I have been getting mad at him for Every. Little. Thing. And I mean everything. "How dare you go home to Mexico to visit your family!" "Excuse me? Bitch please, how dare you not tell me you are watching television!" " You fell asleep on me while we were texting?!? Well fuck you!" (Even though he had like no sleep for a week...)
That really needed to stop.
Yesterday and today, our "arguments" changed. They because disagreements, where we both began to understand/make the effort to see each others point of view. We have been talking about everything that has been bothering us and hurting our relationship. He told me that he has always had a tendency to think purely logically, emitting emotions. A regular Mr. Spock, if you will. It´s not that he was ignoring my feelings, he just didn´t even acknowledge that I had them. I told him that I understood everything that he said to an extent, but explained to him that he needs to take into account MY feelings as well. I also told him, finally, that I was not okay with his continuing friendship with the girl that he once left me for, for sex. As much as I tried to find peace there, knowing she was still in his life (Even though I KNOW for a fact that it was ONLY friendship now) was hurting my chances of recovering from what happened.
So I´ve taken her out of my life. I respect her as a person, but right now, I need to look after MY feelings and MY relationship. They are more important at this point. And he has agreed to limit contact as much as possible. It would be rude to outright delete her from his life at this point, but he agreed to limit their communication to the max, and to keep me informed about it.
Suddenly, the once innocent and pure love I had for Miguel came rushing back to me. I remembered what it was like to feel this deeply for him.
I´ve found the one again
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