Back from the deep, but still single

[lizzielove]

Hey everyone! I haven't been here in awhile, it's been tough for me for a long time. It's been over a year since I lost my SO, and I still think of him everyday. I accidentally deleted all his pictures about 6 months ago, and couldn't find copies online anywhere. I was searching my email just now to see if I'd sent them to anyone, and I saw an email from this forum. It hit me: I put up pics of him here. Sure enough, I found my favs on here, and burst into tears. I know that it's been a year, and I know that even though I look for him everywhere and imagine him coming to rescue me, it won't happen, but having his pictures comforts me. I finally was able to watch his videos and hear his voice, and cried happy tears at his memory (no, he's not dead, it just sounds like it, because to me, he is).
My life has also had a huge change in the time I've been gone. The only person who wanted to console me, also wanted nookie, and I got pregnant, through no fault of my own. So amidst everyone, and I mean everyone, saying mean things and breaking up our friendships, I gave birth to my daughter Lucy. I now have only one real friend in the town I live in, and my family is about to re-locate to Austin.
So, I've gone through hell, and I need friends right now, and I want to kiss this forum for having what I needed *kiss* I hope I'm still welcome
P.S. You need a mobile site or something, because except for once a week, I only have internet on my phone.

[lademoiselle]

I think you must be a very strong person to have gone through all you've described. I hope you find what you're looking for soon, and of course you're still welcome here, everyone is

ETA: I had a look at your profile - your baby is beautiful!

[leonsfangirl]

I think you must be a very strong person to have gone through all you've described. I hope you find what you're looking for soon, and of course you're still welcome here, everyone is

ETA: I had a look at your profile - your baby is beautiful!

Exactly that! (i took a look at the photo's too... sorry)

[lizzielove]

Thanks she's so pretty
Thanks for saying I'm strong. I don't feel very strong, I feel like Atlas, forever cursed to carry the world on his shoulders.
I'm glad I'm still welcome here

[princessmeg1328]

Your baby girl is gorgeous! She looks like she's a very happy baby.
I can't believe you've gone through so much and are still dealing with everything. You're stronger than you think you are. There is a mobile site. If you go to the forum info board, there's a thread there that talks about the mobile site.

Welcome back!

[kittyo9]

Awww honey, you're always welcome. You have had a CRAZY year, and I'm impressed at how you've handled it, as well as glad you came here for support. Your daughter is adorable and I hope she brings you much joy. Are you moving with your family or will you be staying where you are?

[lizzielove]

I'm moving with my family. I have health issues that prevent me from working a real job, so I still live with my mom. We don't get along sometimes, but I don't really have a choice, since I have my daughter now. I was about to get government housing when I got pregnant, so now I'm stuck with my mom. It wouldn't be so bad if I had a car/license, but oh well, I'm used to crappy situations.
My daughter is an angel I'm so blessed to have her. When I was still in the hospital, after my grandma sent me a really mean letter, I looked down at her and realized that she must be a very special person, because of all the crap that I went through to have her.