So Angry

[mofet]

I am just so pissed right now, I need to vent.
I have a really important job interview tomorrow with a really tough investment management firm.
It would mean the world to me to get the job, so I've been working really hard to prepare myself for the 4.5 hour long interview.
Part of this preparation meant honing math skills, and the other part is learning how to do case studies.
Now, my SO knew how important this week was to me, so he offered to help me with the case studies-- like practice one with him.
He promised to do it every day this week, but every time it, he had something else to do. He's currently trying to get his nephew to pass the GED, and he needs more help than me, so I get it. However, he took his two tests on tue/wed, so I was expecting him to help yesterday. I call and he tells me that his sister's talking to him (they haven't spoken in years) so that he'd call back.
I wait over 2 hours, and get too tired, so I go to sleep.
Today he told me he was sorry and that he'd make SURE to take time out for me.
He told me, how does 8 or 9 sound? And I was like, sure, perfect.
Then later today, around 8:45 he finally appears on FB (I was studying math, so I didn't care about the time). So I start chatting with him, telling him that I was finishing up some problems. Then at 9:15, he just stops replying... which was weird. So I call him, and he doesn't call back.
I think it may be some family emergency, so I wait. At ten I send him a text, and he doesn't reply.
I see that he's seen my fb message at 10:20, so figure he'd call.
He doesn't call.
I call at 10:45, just pissed because I wanted to get to bed before 11:30, so that I could have a good night's sleep.
He calls me back and was like "oh hey" Apparently he was hanging out with his nephew and his girlfriend, and "forgot" that he said 8 or 9.
I know he didn't "intend" to do this to me. But I'm so stressed out and I am just breaking down right now.
I really needed the extra prep, and now I'm pissed off, angry, and frustrated, and I know I won't sleep well.
It's just one of those times you wanna smack em over the head, but you can't because they're so far away.
I know I'll forgive him, but holy shit does long distance really make you that unreliable????
It's just not fair and I've never let him down like this.

[prinzeza87]

sorry to hear that, ive felt that before with ex bf, not fair n cool at all. best u can do is try to relax n let it go , i would give u one of my pills for anxiety hehe they work excellent on me when im sad-desperated-frustated-angry etc

[Katelyn313]

First, I really really hope your job interview went well

Second, I know you said you just needed to vent and might not be looking for advice... but definitely talk to him about this. Just mention that it made you upset and you wanted to be honest with him. I can see how it might even make you feel like he doesn't value what you're doing or understand the stress you're under. I know people will say, Oh, that's just how guys are, but that's no excuse.

In my previous serious relationship, I ended up holding things in that upset me. I wouldn't voice my opinions or how I felt and it made for a very tense relationship toward the end and made me very resentful. I don't want to see that happen to you. So I would definitely (when you're calmer and less stressed) let him know how you feel. It'll make you feel better and maybe open his eyes a little bit to his end of the deal. To support and love you.

Hope that helps and again... I hope you aced the interview

[mofet]

The interview actually went rather well, so thank you.
I wouldn't have been so upset if he just didn't promise to help.
I calmed down and forgave him, and he promised to be more aware in the future.
So thanks for listening .
It's just so frustrating sometimes with all of this distance. We lived together pretty much for seven months so now all of these things seem out of place.