To be completely honest, my SO and I have a pretty big age difference, and when we first met it was quite illegal, you might say. I was turning 17 when we met, and he was turning 35. I had been on this very popular chat sight for a while, until one day a chat mate of mine said that he found a really cool room, just dont tell them how old i am just yet. Eventually, I started to get along with a lot of the people there despite the fact that they we all older than me. Of course, like in any chat website, you get those pervy messages from random people. I usually just closed or blocked any stupid messages. But there was this one guy that just said something cheesy, despite the fact that I didnt have a profile picture, he said that i "looked" beautiful...I was all 0.o? and he said "I'm sorry, i suck at this" and we started a conversation there. we tlaked everyday until the end of the school year and i said that when im at home during summer vacations, i dont get a lot of time on Meebo. Eventually, we just stopped talking, about a year passed and I learned that Meebo was shutting down all chat rooms, so i was able to just collect "Addy's" from my friends, i had his already but I didnt see him on, couple of months passed and i got into college, FINALLY, and i finally saw him online, we stated talking again, even though we were really embarrassed that we didnt remember each other's names xD, at the time of all this, i was suffering severe clinical depression and i was having boy trouble. It ended with that person and through countess days of messages, my SO finally said he had feelings for me. i said that i also felt the same, even though i was having some emotional issues, on the inside i didn't really want anything. But I pulled myself out of it, and i opened up my eyes and saw he really did like me. at first we felt very much like friends with benefits. I was ok with that, for the time being. Eventually we would start talking on skype. I was so nervous to hear his voice, but the moment he said "hello sexy" like he always did over messages, i felt my heart flutter. From then on he would message me from a meebo app on my itouch asking if it was ok to call. All i had to do was listen to what was going on downstairs to see if i could get some time to myself. Usually i would lie to just get some time to myself. my family life by the way was in the shits, i hate my father for being emotionally abusive to my sisters and my mom, but i hated him mostly for letting his anger out on me, physically. When my SO found out about this he got pissed every time he heard my dad yell through my bedroom door.
I'd say our relationship started out one cold winter day in February, when I was leaving the campus, still hanging on to that last bit of wifi i finally said that i love him, a couple of minutes later, he said he loved me too. I felt like my stomach and heart were being tossed into a blender. that night though, we couldn't talk. So the next day, i asked if he was weirded out with what i said yesterday. he said no and asked if it was too weird that he loved me back. i was like "HELL NO" and so we finally just started loving each other forever more.
Every passing day that we talked, it felt like my depression got it's natural medicine, though there were time that i felt like i needed a triple dose of my chemical meds. I finally felt legitly loved and cared for, and even though he cant buy me anything (cause he's very broke) and even though i cant touch him (cause we're stuck where we are) all that matters is that i actually have somebody special to actually miss.
Now, im messaging him on skype just waiting to hear his voice before i fall asleep tonight. Even though we kinda fell asleep on each other a couple of hours ago. Yes we took a nap together lol
so tell me your guy's stories, id love to hea...er...read them.
I'd say our relationship started out one cold winter day in February, when I was leaving the campus, still hanging on to that last bit of wifi i finally said that i love him, a couple of minutes later, he said he loved me too. I felt like my stomach and heart were being tossed into a blender. that night though, we couldn't talk. So the next day, i asked if he was weirded out with what i said yesterday. he said no and asked if it was too weird that he loved me back. i was like "HELL NO" and so we finally just started loving each other forever more.
Every passing day that we talked, it felt like my depression got it's natural medicine, though there were time that i felt like i needed a triple dose of my chemical meds. I finally felt legitly loved and cared for, and even though he cant buy me anything (cause he's very broke) and even though i cant touch him (cause we're stuck where we are) all that matters is that i actually have somebody special to actually miss.
Now, im messaging him on skype just waiting to hear his voice before i fall asleep tonight. Even though we kinda fell asleep on each other a couple of hours ago. Yes we took a nap together lol
so tell me your guy's stories, id love to hea...er...read them.
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