Well this blows.
We were only apart for a couple of months, but it has been enough for him to decide that he doesn't want an LDR. After 2 years of on and off distance, it's suddenly over.
The kicker? This weekend is when we see eachother. I already have off work/ tickets are booked, so, now, instead of it being a happy reunion it's going to be just...ruined. He said he meant to wait until we saw eachother to end it but it all sort of came out on the phone. I'm still going, at least for the closure/to see other friends.
He says it doesn't have to be different, he still wants to see me this weekend and spend time with me, but, I mean, you can't stomp all over your cake and eat it, too. It's going to be such a double edged sword of joy at seeing him and sadness because we're over so we can't curl up in bed together after all. I miss him so much.
I'm calling up friends to crash with them, trying to find someone else to pick me up from the airport, and at the same time part of me wants to just leave things the way we planned, and spend time with him even if it makes it hurt more, because my brain can't wrap itself around he fact that were broken up.
Part of me desperately wants him to clap eyes on me at the airport and realize he's made a huge mistake..but I know that's delusional. His reasoning is that the distance made him think more, about what he wants in life, and how he's in a 1/4 life crisis right now where he hates his job and is just generally unhappy, and doesn't want to feel responsible for me moving back to live with him in March, like we planned, in case I don't like it there. He wants to sort himself out and feels that he needs to be alone to do that. He feels like both of us are "throttling our lives" for the relationship.
it just sucks, to build up seeing someone for months and have them break up with you right before the reunion.
I don't really know what I'm asking for here, I just needed to get it out. Any advice on how to handle this weekend would be appreciated.
We were only apart for a couple of months, but it has been enough for him to decide that he doesn't want an LDR. After 2 years of on and off distance, it's suddenly over.
The kicker? This weekend is when we see eachother. I already have off work/ tickets are booked, so, now, instead of it being a happy reunion it's going to be just...ruined. He said he meant to wait until we saw eachother to end it but it all sort of came out on the phone. I'm still going, at least for the closure/to see other friends.
He says it doesn't have to be different, he still wants to see me this weekend and spend time with me, but, I mean, you can't stomp all over your cake and eat it, too. It's going to be such a double edged sword of joy at seeing him and sadness because we're over so we can't curl up in bed together after all. I miss him so much.
I'm calling up friends to crash with them, trying to find someone else to pick me up from the airport, and at the same time part of me wants to just leave things the way we planned, and spend time with him even if it makes it hurt more, because my brain can't wrap itself around he fact that were broken up.
Part of me desperately wants him to clap eyes on me at the airport and realize he's made a huge mistake..but I know that's delusional. His reasoning is that the distance made him think more, about what he wants in life, and how he's in a 1/4 life crisis right now where he hates his job and is just generally unhappy, and doesn't want to feel responsible for me moving back to live with him in March, like we planned, in case I don't like it there. He wants to sort himself out and feels that he needs to be alone to do that. He feels like both of us are "throttling our lives" for the relationship.
it just sucks, to build up seeing someone for months and have them break up with you right before the reunion.
I don't really know what I'm asking for here, I just needed to get it out. Any advice on how to handle this weekend would be appreciated.
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