Is it over?

[DK007]

You all have valid points, and Im not going to argue them because they are Right! Yes, I said it. But thats where the easy part ends unfortunately. Im not a fool, I know that I deserve better. But it still doesnt make it any easier.

There is just so much going through my head right now that its hard to sort it out. The reason why its such a shock is cause I knew that she was done, I had thought that I was done as well, hell the call was only a formality, I figured Id call and she wouldnt answer as usual, then Id send my last text. But for her to say that she still wants to talk to me, and that she doesnt want to write me off for good, means a lot for her, for me. Weve talked about her priors, and Everyone of them was over when it was over. No second chances.

I made her no promises. The last thing I said to her was I guess Ill talk to you sometime. And just because I feel shocked and raw right now, doesnt mean that in a couple of days i wont get mad, wake up, and realize whats going on. It doesnt mean that I wont pursue other opportunities in the mean time, it definitely doesnt mean Ill sit around and feel bad, or sit by the phone and wait. I could meet someone else between now and whenever, whos to say. But I just know that right now, at this exact point in time, Im not there yet.

With all that said, and with it being less than 12hrs since it happened, Im still trying to figure it out. In 12 more hours, I could be completely opposite from where I am now. I have no plans or timetables for this. It could be months before I contact her, it could be never. But things are Never black and white for me.

[Biddlybiddlybombop]

She "needs space", but she just completely ignored you for a month, knew you didn't know why, knew you were upset and in pain over it, and she still didn't give you a reason why? And now, when you've finally managed to get her to talk to you, after over a month of trying, she's still just talking about herself? Does she not even see how badly she's treated you?

Open your eyes to her. Don't make excuses for her. She was unnecessarily cruel to you. She had no problem just cutting contact and leaving you hanging. Is that someone you seriously want to be with. Think about her actions, not her words.

[Black_Halloween]

"We've talked about her priors, and everyone of them was over when it was over. No second chances."

Shes not royalty you know. You basically said "WOW i'm the only person shes given a second chance to, i'm so lucky! I am not worthy!" with some bowing and kissing her feet afterwards. I also agree with Biddly, you seem to have done a lot of talking about -her- and not how she made you feel (with her, not with us), its awfully one sided. She -knows- that you're just going to end up waiting for her again and like I said, shes got you wrapped around her little finger. To some it up, shes got "Queen Syndrome" and you're playing right into it.

But, good luck to you. You seem like a nice guy and yes, you deserve better.