Having a hard time :(

[starksito]

Hello everyone, this is my first post here, although I have been following this site over a year ago :P This time I cant describe how I feel because its so painful I visited my SO last year since december and I came back last week and Im so scared about the situation I have the plan to live in her country this year (november) and by that closing the distance. We have been in this for over 2 years but I dont know why I feel like she wont wait for me... of course its only in my mind, but when I was with her we talked about the situation and she said something that she doesnt wanna suffer anymore because she falls badly =( of course I also have bad moments (trust me, real BAD moments) but Im sure that I can do it, because she is the best girl and girlfriend in the world... but my fear is that she couldnt wait for me these 9 or 10 months. Besides I dont know if I can visit her in august, so we are gonna be like 1 year without seeing each other. I dont know what to do for real, I dont wanna lose her at all, and I wanna be her strenght but I have a bad feeling about that although our relation ship doesnt have any problem (well just the basic things to deal) Besides I feel so selfish and Im feeling jelous from everything (she said she was gonna go out with a friend that went to the same highschool as her and I felt so jealous and that guy wants something with her) Pls I need some advice to overcome these months, we are almost in the final and Im so scared

P.S: I apologize for my english, but Im not a native english speaker.

[Black_Halloween]

One word: Communication! Have you expressed these worries to her? If not then you should do so.

[starksito]

Yes I have, but she says that we have to let the things happen... She means to not force anything, I havent said her about her friends though, because I think that she wont take it easy, plus she is depressed I think because I came back to my country 10 days ago, every time that I have to part its so difficult but this time is the worst of all of them... she also says that my fears wont help the relationship :/ the problem here is that both of us are depressed

[Kiyama]

How did you visit go? It seems like you spent quite a bit of time there
It could be that it's just hard to settle back into a routine after such a long visit. It's natural to feel lonely in the first two weeks but it'll get better, I promise!

You also have plans to close the distance this year so that's wonderful. Don't dwell on the negatives but focus on what's good. You just had a lovely visit and you ll be in each others arms by November at the latest, which is great!
I find it really important not to dwell on the distance all the time but to stay busy. Get out there, meet up with friends and distract yourself. The more you have to do, the less miserable you can be and time will fly. Don't give up. You can do it

[starksito]

Thank you very much for your advice I really apreciate it. You are right, I have to focus in other things and trust me, Im trying to do it but its not easy, besides I had plan to visit her in august but something happened in my country and now I will only be able to go in november =/ I felt depressed again with it, because its gonna be like 10 months without see her =(

[butlerfly]

Just keep looking forward... It is a long time, but you have made it this far... you will make it that little bit further. :-D
My boyfriend leaves next week and I won't see him for 10 months either. it is really really tough.

Just keep in contact with her as much as you can. and never let her forget how much you think of her or how much she means to you.

Best of luck. x