Quick Background,
My wife and I are both in the military, I have been in four, she has been in two. I have been on 1 deployment on an aircraft carrier. I have A LOT of seatime, well not compared to the old guys. But for my age I have seen my fair share of blue. We met in hospital corpsman A school. And were stationed on exact opposite ends of the country. We were married last September.
I have been noticing lately that I have developed a short temper. I genuinely think it is derived from my sea time. It is really hard to explain the inner working of Deck Department in a way that would give an accurate depiction. Basically everyone is angry all the time. We were worked 23 hour days, At least 10 of which were standing watch staring off into the distance. The other 13 was usually something like chipping pain or painting. The lucky few on the boat who were worked so hard we never knew what time of day it actually was. There was a time when I had the patience of a saint, but it feels like that was long ago. This is my first issue. Second, I present ideas and explain things in an apparently condescending manner. Completely unintentional, but my extensive vocabulary coupled with a working knowledge of a vast array of theories and Ideas is always presented in a way that makes her feel small. My third problem, is that she thinks i dont care. I try and express that I love her, and I think about her all the time but it has proven inadequate. I am concerned because all I really want to do is make her happy, and it seems like I only cause her frustration on grief. I know she loves me, I am just scared that I might drive her over the edge. I never want to make her cry but it seems like that is all I do lately.
Is there anyone that has any advice on steps I may take to make things better?
My wife and I are both in the military, I have been in four, she has been in two. I have been on 1 deployment on an aircraft carrier. I have A LOT of seatime, well not compared to the old guys. But for my age I have seen my fair share of blue. We met in hospital corpsman A school. And were stationed on exact opposite ends of the country. We were married last September.
I have been noticing lately that I have developed a short temper. I genuinely think it is derived from my sea time. It is really hard to explain the inner working of Deck Department in a way that would give an accurate depiction. Basically everyone is angry all the time. We were worked 23 hour days, At least 10 of which were standing watch staring off into the distance. The other 13 was usually something like chipping pain or painting. The lucky few on the boat who were worked so hard we never knew what time of day it actually was. There was a time when I had the patience of a saint, but it feels like that was long ago. This is my first issue. Second, I present ideas and explain things in an apparently condescending manner. Completely unintentional, but my extensive vocabulary coupled with a working knowledge of a vast array of theories and Ideas is always presented in a way that makes her feel small. My third problem, is that she thinks i dont care. I try and express that I love her, and I think about her all the time but it has proven inadequate. I am concerned because all I really want to do is make her happy, and it seems like I only cause her frustration on grief. I know she loves me, I am just scared that I might drive her over the edge. I never want to make her cry but it seems like that is all I do lately.
Is there anyone that has any advice on steps I may take to make things better?
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