Not used to Valentines day...

[oxytocinbite]

I never really celebrated it, and this is my first time...my boyfriend made me a really sweet collage and I don't know why but I just don't think Valentines day is that amazing. I feel bad, I made him feel angry because I told him that my ex contacted me and I guess he needs to tell me something important, I am going to let him tell me what he needs to tell me. I just kind of ruined the whole mood of the day and I wish I didn't. I have not even made him anything...I am going to send him a sweet letter but I have no stamps right now so it will come late.

My whole mood all day has been super weird, I maybe am not used to this whole valentine thing...is that normal? He sent me a package that am waiting for but I don't know what my reaction will be and that kind of scares me. Today he told me to list 10 things I love about him and I could not think of anything. I love him so much and I have so many things I love about him but I don't understand why it was so hard for me. I felt awkward and completely empty, I am good at expressing my love through writing but not through my voice, I get nervous.

[squeeker]

I think it's okay.. I don't know how long you've been together, but I guess less than a year given it's your first Valentine's together. It's pretty bad timing your ex contacting you around Valentines Day.. just try and remind your SO you love him and care about him and he's important to you. And seriously try and think about what you love about him. I think it's important and will make you feel more secure about your feelings. I know it's hard to think about things on the spot? But maybe I can help.. do you love his eyes? His smile? His body? His fashion sense? His lack of fashion sense? His love of music/whatever he's into? His compassionate nature? Is he generous? kind? understanding? loving? caring? Just look up some adjectives and think about if that describes him If you guys didn't talk about getting things for each other before today, I think he should be understanding that you didn't get anything.. just tell him you didn't know how he felt about valentine's day and with you being long distance you didn't know if sending a card or a gift would be approriate? Or be honest if you were busy and tell him that. Just talk to him. I hope things work out. Don't worry. I hope it's nothing to worry about with your ex.. take care!

[Alsfia]

I think we both forgot about Valentines here laat year, which is completely understandable since its called Friends Day here and all pink clouds a.d heart shaped chocolate only recently hit this corner of the world. With that said, I could hardly care less about Valentines Day so I completely understand you. I was never really into those dates youre expected to have a certain mood or fulfill certain expectations...
About not being so good at expressing your feelings vocally, Id say dont worry about it, itll get better. Still, writing a letter and read it out loud to your SO is a quite easy way to take some of the pressure off and its defenitely not any less personal. It might feel silly, but I would think ot was the cutest thing if my SO took time to write me a letter and read it to me