Hi Everyone,
Sorry, but I feel like venting as I've been feeling depressed as of late in particular...
I have had a poor history of romance as I'm shy and generally have self-esteem issues (a contrast to my personality when working). I was recently introduced, however, to someone I don't think I've ever bonded so well just recently and look forward to feedback from her everyday in any capacity. I've actually met in person when we first connected (where I reside) and have already visited her recently too.
The thing about my personality is when I really like and care about a person I'm extremely affectionate (she really isn't, which I've gotten use up to a certain degree). I'm also not necessarily an attention hog, but sometimes I feel just recently our messages are periodically infrequent too. I know she is busy and I know she cares about me, but sometimes I do feel lonesome and depressed, especially tonight. I briefly mentioned my concern earlier today and she apologized (sort of, but in a weird way), but I felt guilty, quickly retracted my response and told her I will try not to sound as needy and be more flexible.
As to personality, she is a more social person surrounded by friends and is always in constant communication with her family, so I can see her possibly having an easily way to entertain/occupy herself. I'm a bit of a contrast to this. I have a few close friends and have a lot of family surrounding me, but I usually prefer times to be alone. I worry if I start to allow communication to become less frequent this will not just continue to distance us, but I will revert back to being sad and moody, and drown myself further in my job (I already put a long share of hours that she has voiced more than once I work too hard).
There are so many layers more I would like to share, but I'm spent and still trying to figure out how much information I should volunteer without worrying about privacy. I'm sorry. Any form of constructive feedback will be appreciated.
- Juggiekins
Sorry, but I feel like venting as I've been feeling depressed as of late in particular...
I have had a poor history of romance as I'm shy and generally have self-esteem issues (a contrast to my personality when working). I was recently introduced, however, to someone I don't think I've ever bonded so well just recently and look forward to feedback from her everyday in any capacity. I've actually met in person when we first connected (where I reside) and have already visited her recently too.
The thing about my personality is when I really like and care about a person I'm extremely affectionate (she really isn't, which I've gotten use up to a certain degree). I'm also not necessarily an attention hog, but sometimes I feel just recently our messages are periodically infrequent too. I know she is busy and I know she cares about me, but sometimes I do feel lonesome and depressed, especially tonight. I briefly mentioned my concern earlier today and she apologized (sort of, but in a weird way), but I felt guilty, quickly retracted my response and told her I will try not to sound as needy and be more flexible.
As to personality, she is a more social person surrounded by friends and is always in constant communication with her family, so I can see her possibly having an easily way to entertain/occupy herself. I'm a bit of a contrast to this. I have a few close friends and have a lot of family surrounding me, but I usually prefer times to be alone. I worry if I start to allow communication to become less frequent this will not just continue to distance us, but I will revert back to being sad and moody, and drown myself further in my job (I already put a long share of hours that she has voiced more than once I work too hard).
There are so many layers more I would like to share, but I'm spent and still trying to figure out how much information I should volunteer without worrying about privacy. I'm sorry. Any form of constructive feedback will be appreciated.
- Juggiekins
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