Returned from my infamous visit!
So, I am back from the first visit to where he lives! I was supposed to return on Monday, but didn't get back until Tuesday after the worst flight delays and cancellations ever, I swear!
I'm feeling pretty sad. Not only do I have to deal with being away from him again, but the reality of not having a job yet and personality conflicts with my family just set in all too soon. I want to listen to his heart while he holds me in his arms and makes me feel inspired and safe!
Talking on Skype and the phone are just weird now. I so desperately want to talk with him, but I feel there is a certain amount of awkwardness transitioning back into using those communication tools that kind of just makes me want to be vastly immature and hang up and sulk. Anyone else feel that way after visits?
I don't know where to begin about the trip, really...and there are some things that came up, so maybe I will make separate threads for those. Overall, though, I had a good time. He took me lots of nice places to eat and shop and then we did nature and artsy things...and he was very cooperative with pictures. I must get those uploaded soon. He really liked that my visit gave him a "free nerdy tourist pass," and he felt that I was good for him and got him to try new things, which he ended up liking.
Perhaps most memorable, though, were things at his apartment that made us feel normal and connected, like making dinner together, cuddling and watching movies, or...em...getting to express our feelings in physical ways.
He did end up paying for most things, but it felt kind of nice to be treated that way...and, as some of you have said, I could show I care in other ways. I totally over-packed, but ended up feeling confident about what I had to dress in, so that was good. When I left, I was going to buy him something cool as a thank you, but I decided that getting him a nice card from one of the local shops and leaving what money I could for him to help towards groceries, or what have you, would be best--I think he appreciated that.
I'm feeling pretty sad. Not only do I have to deal with being away from him again, but the reality of not having a job yet and personality conflicts with my family just set in all too soon. I want to listen to his heart while he holds me in his arms and makes me feel inspired and safe!
Talking on Skype and the phone are just weird now. I so desperately want to talk with him, but I feel there is a certain amount of awkwardness transitioning back into using those communication tools that kind of just makes me want to be vastly immature and hang up and sulk. Anyone else feel that way after visits?I don't know where to begin about the trip, really...and there are some things that came up, so maybe I will make separate threads for those. Overall, though, I had a good time. He took me lots of nice places to eat and shop and then we did nature and artsy things...and he was very cooperative with pictures. I must get those uploaded soon. He really liked that my visit gave him a "free nerdy tourist pass," and he felt that I was good for him and got him to try new things, which he ended up liking.
Perhaps most memorable, though, were things at his apartment that made us feel normal and connected, like making dinner together, cuddling and watching movies, or...em...getting to express our feelings in physical ways. He did end up paying for most things, but it felt kind of nice to be treated that way...and, as some of you have said, I could show I care in other ways. I totally over-packed, but ended up feeling confident about what I had to dress in, so that was good. When I left, I was going to buy him something cool as a thank you, but I decided that getting him a nice card from one of the local shops and leaving what money I could for him to help towards groceries, or what have you, would be best--I think he appreciated that.
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