some of you may know what I'm in but if not, I'll make it short:
My SO are half a world apart. I live in Chile, but I'm moving to Denmark on the following months and she is in the Philippines...
we only talk once every other weekend unless she get's to lend her roommates laptop which is rare and otherwise there's the maybe-once-a-week call that doesn't really last longer than 5 minutes because it's so expensive, but even then, we've been going for 3 months now.
oh btw, we do Skype talk, but it's only voice calls as neither of us got a cam....
last year, she had some really bad times with men there, and she learned to not trust people (or better said, men in general). this lead to one thing which is kind of... sad? she really isn't "in touch with her feelings" as how she put it once, so sometimes she wouldn't know how to react when I do things for her, but the worst part is that she doesn't really do, or say things for that matter to make me feel like I'm doing that great in this relationship. Sure there is the "I'm so lucky/glad I got you" or "I hope I wont lose you" kind of things from time to time, and maybe I'm asking too much as we're trying not to rush anything but I really think it could be better.
It's probably the time we spend apart we're not talking and that we only get to really chat for about weekend that is taking it's toll on me.
also... I guess I can't really rule out the fact that sometimes I just really long to be able to just magically teleport myself to her. I really want to be able to see her, touch her and feel her myself instead of having to psychologically hug her through the screen (I'm a sad person eh...)
ok, I think that's it right now...
I probably sounded a bit girlish in some parts, but eh, that's how it is at this time...
any comment is welcome. thanks for reading this through!
My SO are half a world apart. I live in Chile, but I'm moving to Denmark on the following months and she is in the Philippines...
we only talk once every other weekend unless she get's to lend her roommates laptop which is rare and otherwise there's the maybe-once-a-week call that doesn't really last longer than 5 minutes because it's so expensive, but even then, we've been going for 3 months now.
oh btw, we do Skype talk, but it's only voice calls as neither of us got a cam....
last year, she had some really bad times with men there, and she learned to not trust people (or better said, men in general). this lead to one thing which is kind of... sad? she really isn't "in touch with her feelings" as how she put it once, so sometimes she wouldn't know how to react when I do things for her, but the worst part is that she doesn't really do, or say things for that matter to make me feel like I'm doing that great in this relationship. Sure there is the "I'm so lucky/glad I got you" or "I hope I wont lose you" kind of things from time to time, and maybe I'm asking too much as we're trying not to rush anything but I really think it could be better.
It's probably the time we spend apart we're not talking and that we only get to really chat for about weekend that is taking it's toll on me.
also... I guess I can't really rule out the fact that sometimes I just really long to be able to just magically teleport myself to her. I really want to be able to see her, touch her and feel her myself instead of having to psychologically hug her through the screen (I'm a sad person eh...)
ok, I think that's it right now...
I probably sounded a bit girlish in some parts, but eh, that's how it is at this time...
any comment is welcome. thanks for reading this through!
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