is he doubting me?

Personally, I think you've invested too much into something before even knowing that it'll work. While your SO seems to be insecure and hurt from the past.

You care about him but it is the Internet and until you meet you are just two individuals that met
Online. Don't even consider
making such drastic changes in your life until you meet this man.

Secondly, so what if your travelling to him. You made that choice, your getting on the plan and I assume its voluntary. He doesn't owe you a thing. If you want to meet him then go but go under the pretence that you don't "expect" anything. It's hard but you can't have expectations. Everything is better when it's a dream and not a reality. Keep things in perspective.

heres the thing, we've been together for over a year and half and now in 3months im finally having ticket to visit. But, our relationship has always had fights, like every 2weeks or so. Mainly,because he has a hard time expressing feelings and doesnt really share much of his life with me. For ex. Always when i'd ask how was outing with friends he would say we talked,went there.. Blah blah. And he'd stay with them half a day too, but never goes into details. Its true he is very reserved, but i need that sharing. Then when id ask much he would say i dont trust him and i have bad thoughts. If sometimes he wouldnt reply for a few hours, i worry and he says i dont have to as in hes not a kid, when its not about it at all. However long story short, he always had trust issues and even if he says he trusts me and that hes sure of us, the other night i saw a convo he had with my bro. He told him i hope she is 'true people in my life, that shes a good girl' how insecure is he? My bro doesnt know what gf he meant, because i didnt tell him, but seeing him doubt has made me sad.

Yet still the other time we talked, in a fight and then later he said this is just internet for him until we meet and to me i felt hurt, because yes, im aware, but i put my effort to go and see him and i never travelled with plane, alone or for anyone. Later if it would work, id change my religion for him, move, leave my family and learn his language, but he said when i asked what that means to him, that its 'nice' just that, because ha has to see that in real. We sent gifts,we texts, we go on cam and all that...

I dont know, am i just overreacting or is all of it really just internet for him till then? Im confused on what to do, since hes already hurt me before with his words and doubts.

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