Sort things out..

[SongwriterInAnLDR]

I'm trying to sort things out. I'm trying to sort my life out & it's been really tough. But my SO has been there every step on the way, & I'm so grateful for that. He want me to save for the future instead of spending money of gifts for him. I told him I plan to move out of my aunt's house next year & he's given me advice on how to go about doing that. He's amazing. I wouldn't mind moving in with him, but that's a huge step & we are still in the friendship/ a tad bit more but not quite relationship mode. & since he's not really looking for a relationship right now, I try not to push it on him, even though the signs are there it's more than friends that we are. We are just taking it slow, because he said he doesn't know what the future holds. So I'm just patiently waiting for him to change his mind, & I will give him enough time & space to think our friendship/relationship out. I'm content. I just pray that I get my life in order soon & if he's going to be a part of it or not.

[ams.201220]

It's really good that you're taking things slow! Some of the best things take time, and I feel like your relationship will be stronger because you waited. I'm in the same situation though....I'm trying to pull myself together and sometimes it's just hard. I wish you the best of luck!!!!

[SongwriterInAnLDR]

I wish you luck too.

[dandelion]

You made me smile becouse you seem sweet
Wish you all the best for your future !

[SongwriterInAnLDR]

Applying for jobs

I started applying for jobs near where I live, until I get this check I'm waiting on every month. I can only work part-time as I'm apply for SSI, & I'm waiting for that to come though, but in the mean time I need income coming in because I have none coming in right now, & it's been tough, so I've decided I can't live like this waiting for SSI to come through, it a LONG process & have no money, so I applied for some jobs, I'm going to applying for a bunch more as well. It's been really tough on me, & I don't have support like I would want to have from my family, so it's been extremely hard for me. That's why I'm so grateful for my SO, just him being here have someone to talk to is very helpful for me. I'm so grateful that he supports me & wants to be here for me as much as he can! It doesn't get any better than that, & we aren't even a couple yet or married. So that's why I'm grateful for him! All I can do is wait this thing out & pray. I will get through this with his help & God's help!